Chapter 145
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"Leave, and don't ever come back."
I couldn't contain my expression, even the anger that was inside of me seemed to just erupt at that time. I got so frustrated that i had to grab his collar and pushed him to the ground, my body along with it.
As i was above him, he looked at me with widened eyes.
"Listen here AlphaKing, i don't know what exactly you are thinking. But don't you ever! don't you ever.." I trailed off, my palms gripping his face. "Don't you ever say you'll abandon me!"
I got this far just to be with you, i finally had the courage to run to you.
Not run away from you!
"You don't have any idea what i had to go through!"
He turns his head, making a grim face. "Stop it, it's useless."
What?!
"What's useless?! if you're not planning on telling me anything then i won't leave here!" I shouted even though he was so close to me. I just wanted to knock some sense into him yet it was me who had to beg him right now.
Zyrus please, don't say things like this.
He pulls my hands away from him as he sat up. Gripping both of my arms, he whispers. "I'm a werewolf, staying beside me will only hurt you."
"What are you saying? so what if you're a werewolf?!"
"You don't understand."
"Then make me!"
"YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND!" He finally shouts back at me. His eyebrow furrowing, he pushes me away as he stood up in his spot.
I gripped his thigh, "You have to tell, you have to at least tell me why you're driving me away right?"
Yeah tell me so i can solve it! there's no way i'm leaving your sight again!
I heard him curse above me. Surprisingly though, he levels his body to me, helping me to stand up. When he was about to let go of my hand, i refused him by squeezing his hand in desperation.
He looks at our hands with worry.
"You could blame me if you want for leading you on, but you really have to leave. Someone is plotting against you in the trials tomorrow. Even i can't stop them on time because they're hired witches." He says yet he was still avoiding my gaze.
He's still hiding something.
"That's all?" I scoffed. "That's really all you have to say?!"
He closes his eyes, then he tried to ignore me. "let go of my hand." he warns.
I gripped his hand tighten.
"No! you have to say what's the real reason of pushing me away-"
"FIne! you want me to say it?!" He reverses out spot, his hands now gripping my own hand. "I have a mate, and somehow i don't know how i lost her! playing around with you isn't something that i should be doing right now!"
I flinched in pain.
I was having mixed feelings about his reasons, but still, it made me feel relieved that he remembered something about his mate. And i knew certainly who is the one in his memories.
It's me, who else?
I wanted to say it so badly but i was fearing that he might go on a rampage just like how he did before. Still, i got selfish and decided to say it to him. There's no saying he'll believe me, but at least i could plant some ideas on him slowly.
I'll wait until he finally remembers me.
"Zyrus.." I smiled at him painfully, feeling his painful grip on my wrists. "It's me.. you might. not believe it, but I'm your mate."
I was expecting him to be angry or shocked, but what i didn't expect was the next moments to come.
His crystal-like tears fall on his cheek as if he himself wasn't even aware of what kind of expression he was making infront of me. I placed a hand on my mouth, trembling at his state. I was lost for words, my tears also threatening to fall.
"Zyrus," I tried reaching out to him, but he turns his head away from me.
He slowly loosens his grip, his hand going into his chest. He grips it tightly. "Painful.. why is it that when you said those words. I felt my chest tightened?"
My eyes gleamed with hope.
"It'll be fine, you'll eventually remember everything!"
He wipes his tears, shaking his head. "No, my mate was a werewolf. Stop lying."
"Zyrus i-"
"Just leave! you don't have to make excuses like this! i can't believe this.. a demigod will go so far just to lie?" He looks at me with disbelief.
"What do you mean? you think demigods don't lie?!"
'well i really don't, you know.' Gina confirms.
[shut up gina!]
"I don't know." He replies. "And I'm not interested to know it."
"JUST GO AWAY!" He adds, turning a heel away from me and heading towards the door. "It's useless to cling to me, i can never reciprocate your feelings."
I was frozen in my spot.
My heart wrenched in pain. Even though i knew that he was being like this because of the seal, it still broke me whenever he would push me away. I told him the truth about me being his mate yet he never believed a word i said anyway.
before he leaves the door, he said one last thing.
"I'm sending Jaxon to sneak you away this midnight, if you want to live you'd better off obeying me." Then he shuts the door.
Hah.
How ironic.
So this is what you felt Zyrus? when i constantly pushed you away, you felt this heart-wrenching pain inside your chest? I never thought that my words had this amount of impact on you.
Even when your mate is in front of you, you still turned your back.
Just like how i did to you in the past.
"I'm sorry." I cried. "This is all my fault,"
I grabbed my shirt that was above my chest, my head looking down in sorrow.
'Get a hold of yourself, Christal, this amount of pain is nothing compared to what your mate had to go through just to be with you.' Gina speaks up.
When i heard her words that seemed to mock me, i got so angry that i wasn't able to contain myself.
"What do you know?! you're also the reason why we're like this! so shut up! i don't wanna hear your voice!"
She shuts up.
I don't feel bad, it was true. I hated how we're involved in this shitty curse! It was one of the things i have long hidden inside me, i have always wanted to blame her. Now that i was feeling so angry and hopeless, i vented my anger on her.
and i didn't stop there.
"I hate you! just why the hell did you choose me huh?! If it wasn't for you my life wouldn't have been so difficult! all these misfortunes happening around me is because i'm bounded to you! i despise it.. i despise this fucked up fate."
I huffed out, my breathing becoming frantic from shouting too much.
After i stayed mute for a while, my back leaning on the side of the bed. I found myself feeling nothing as i stared at what's in front of me. i was exhausted for crying too much that i started to doze off.
"I.." I whispered. "I won't give up."
Just like you didn't give up on me.
I promise we'll be together after all of this ends.
No more running away.
