Chapter 105
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As i reached the mansion, i was surprised to see Charles standing by the door. A strange feeling surged into me as i looked at his agitated expression.
"Where have you been?" He asks.
"Training obviousl-"
All of a sudden he yanks my left arm, suspiciously gazing upon it.
"What's wrong?" i asked. His eyes started to glow red as if he was angered by something. As curiosity hits me, i yanked my hand back and caress it carefully.
"You awakened, how? the book is left untouched." His eyes suspicious of mine.
i stared back at him nervously. Well if you think about it he did tell me to read that book to awaken my powers but why do i get the feeling he doesn't look like he is pleased?
"Y-Yeah i actually finished it in one night." i replied, carefully avoiding my gaze.
"Finished you say?" he steps closer.
I stepped back surprised. "why? why the hell are you looking at me with those eyes Charles?"
I was surprised when he wraps his hand around my waist, catching me when i was about to fall on my a**. My eyes widened in embarrassment, at the same time wary since he was still wearing an agitated expression.
"What do you think about the ending?"
Well that was out of nowhere, i thought.
I pushed him away and stood firmly. "What? i thought you read that book already? don't tell me you didn't finished it."
he chuckles. "Can you be more honest to me after this Christal?"
"What do you mean?" i replied, i have a bad feeling.
"The last part of the book is missing, it's not possible for you to awaken even if you read it. Yet you awakened in the perfect state." He said in a saddened expression. He looks away from me as if he was trying to hide it. "I wished you didn't have to do that."
I was shocked when he said those words, he was the one who wanted me to be awaken, but who knew he was unwilling to do so? i don't know exactly what happened to him after so many years, but seeing his state right now means he must've gone through a lot.
i sighed.
"Charles.." I leaned towards him and embraced him carefully, wishing that i could share his burden. Whatever it was, it was enough to make him make that saddened expression. "You can share your burden to me, i'm still that girl who loves hearing your useless stories anyway."
He chuckles, Pinching my cheeks. "You really know how to lighten a mood."
"I'm serious, i want to hear more about what happened to you after you lived again."
Suddenly, his eyes widened as he held his head in pain. He gags but nothing comes out of it, he pushes me away. "Get away!" His eyes started to glow like fire, his movements suddenly restricted as he breathes heavily.
"Charles?"
'What are you standing there for? this is your chance! free you mate at the basement!'
"What? have you gone insane GIna, don't you see Charles is suffering-" i said as i stared at his state horrified.
'Exactly why i am telling you to go save you mate right now! it's not like that demon lord will die from it anyway!'
it was exactly like that time when we were kids, when his disease would relapse frequently and i would be there painfully to watch him endure all of it.
My hand shook, nervous about what exactly what i should do.
'What are you doing?! stop standing like an idiot and hurry to the basement!'
"i'm sorry, i just can't leave him like this." i said. I finally hurried to his side and grabbed his arm to lift him up.
i'm sorry Zyrus.
he pushes me away. "No! leave! i can handle this," he says but continues to whimper in pain, he was about to use a teleportation spell to leave me, when i suddenly held his hand to accompany him.
His eyes widened in shock as we got teleported to the destination he was supposed to go to alone.
We were transported successfully but the word shock was not enough to explain my feeling right now. i completely felt deja vu after coming to this place, love, joy, and pain. It was those things that made me reminisce my memories with Charles at this place.
That's right, this place is the garden where we first met.
{"Well you're prettier in my opinion." A voice of a boy.}
{"What the? You're human!" She points a finger at him. "Humans aren't supposed to be here!"}
"Why are you still enduring this?" I said in panic, he was a grown man but i could still faintly remember that day as if it was happening all over again.
{She was infront of him,}
{While he laid on a big bed surrounded by runners, type of plant in the midde of the garden. }
{In front of her, the boy was surrounded in a big barrier, soundproof. He was screaming in pain.}
"You're gonna .. be fine." I cried. I held him in my arms and used my powers to lessen his pain, by numbing his senses. After a while, he finally breathes in a calm matter but i could still tell that his body is still suffering from that disease.
"I told.. you i can handle it." he said, almost out of breath.
"Are you an idiot?! how could you expect me to not worry after realizing your disease hasn't been cured all this years?! what the fuck have you been doing to-"
So much anger was piling from me- Guilt. that i didn't realise that i was weeping like a child infront of him if he hadn't caress my face in worry. He smiled painfully, "Do you pity me?"
"Charles!" i said, aggravated.
He gets up regardless of suffering internal injuries. "This is just the tip of the iceberg."
"What do you mean?" i said, wiping my tears.
"If you worry too much for me, i know you'll hate me more when the time comes," he said with a pained face. He places his hand to his chest and breaks my enchantment that made his sense go numb.
He flinches but quickly hides it in vain.
"Stop acting like a strong guy okay? it's fine to act vulnerable sometimes." I reached out my hand as i stood up.
He looks at my hand amusingly. "It's a pity you haven't changed at all." he doesn't take my hand at all but stands up regardless his condition "Even i am curious what you have gone through after our fated meeting."
We were sitting side by side, surrounded by my favorite flowers. It all felt so unreal to be here again, i could never imagine going back here after being traumatized about his death here. As i looked into the corner memories surfaced one by one
{"I-I can't see."} Charles cried with sorrow. {"My sickness has taken my sight away, i can't see you anymore."}
{"I love you."} He says with pure honesty beside her ear. {"I w-wish i could hold you longer than this."}
{"WAKE UP! Please don't leave me! why.. WHY?!" Christal wept endlessly while staring at his body.}
I closed my eyes in pain. "I'm sorry. It was all my fault back then."
He stayed silent, making me shed more tears as the silence around us mocked me. I held my chest tightly from the pain i was experiencing, the pain never changed after all this time. How foolish of me to think that time will let it heal.
"You don't need to feel sorry anymore. That child has died."
I looked at him surprised.
"Don't look at me like that." he smiles bitterly. "Don't look at me with such eyes."
"What e-eyes?" i said, avoiding eye contact with him.
He quickly grabs my face and forces me to gaze at his eyes, my expression betraying me again. "This eyes, full of pity.. and guilt."
i pushed him away. "I think we should go back, i'm feeling a little tired, and you also have to rest-"
His lips smashed into mine, it was a bit rough but filled with compassion, his hand slowly making its way on my neck, my consciousness snapped back into reality and i pushed him back. I was terrified all of a sudden, my mate filling my visions. "No stop!"
i unconsciously wiped his kiss, his expression suddenly turns to anger. "See? i was right." he looks away from me.
when i saw a tear fall on his face, i quickly averted my gaze. As if i was not to be responsible for the sadness i caused him. It pained me, but he's right.
He raises his hand and i was suddenly pulled into a teleportation circle that transported me back to the mansion but not before seeing his anguished state as if he realized that he had lost someone forever.
