Chapter 65: I'm in love with you Lynn
1011words
I didn't say any word, I just turned and nearly took off, running across the lawn, wanting to get the hell away from them as quickly as I could. Tears began to blur my vision and because of my panicked steps, I tripped over and landed on the ground as I cursed beneath my breath.
"Lynn",
Every hair stood at the end of my neck at the sound of Drake's voice. I couldn't move. I couldn't breathe.
"Are you okay?", He asked leaning forward to help me stand up but my instincts had a mind of their own. I swatted at his hands and stood up on my own, afraid to face him as I brushed him off. My tears were still blurring my vision as I blinked them away and continued to keep my back to him.
"Lynn, I didn't know you would be home tod......"
"Shut up", I shouted letting every emotion break free in my words.
I'd had enough over the years and this was. Just topping on the cake. I couldn't and wouldn't ever let anyone ever run over me. Jason scared me for life and I wouldn't ever let myself feel that defeated ever again. He wasn't only a porn star but a sadist.
"Lynn.......", He sighed.
I turned and slapped him across his stupidily beautiful face, feeling so much rage and pain all at once. The shocked look on his face and my instant. Moment of surprise was gone in an instant when I shoved at his chest, pushing him back a few steps.
"I hate you", I shouted.
He stood there and just took it. He didn't try to stop me as his arms hung at his side, but his stance was strong like a brick wall. I pushed at him until I fell the fuck apart, burying my face into his chest as I sobbed into his shirt. His arms came around me. Holding me tightly to his chest as he buried his face into my hair.
We stood up like that for the longest time and I wasn't ashamed by my actions.
"I'm so fucking sorry Lynn, I should have told you the moment I started feeling something for you but I was a fucking coward",.
I pushed against him and stepped a few feet away from him, glaring up at his face.
"I tried to bear up with the fact that you both a porn star and sadist but then those two gorgeous women answered the door and I realized I can't, I can't share you with anyone else anymore. I understand this is your career choice, you proud of it, every woman falls for you so I won't stop you. It will always be sex between us because I can't share you",
I turned and went to walk back to my place but Drake stopped me in my tracks with his words.
"I'm in love with you Lynn",
I squeezed my eyes shut and tried not to sob out again. He has no idea what those words meant to me or how I felt the same way but.......",
Spinning around, I finally faced but remained quiet. We stared into each other's eyes until when he took a step forward and pulled me from my daze. "No!", I ordered holding my hand up to him.
He froze in his spot waiting for me to continue. "Don't make this any more difficult than it needs to be", I whispered. He sighed and shook his head, looking completely defeated.
"I'm done Lynn",
The sob in my throat finally broke free as I felt my shoulders shake. So this is what it feels like to be truly heartbroken. When i decided to leave Jason and heard him say he was done,. I never felt like this.
The pain was indescribable and something I would never forget. It was if someone tore my chest open and stabbed a knife into my heart. And the sinking feeling in my stomach was so heavy that I had to wrap my arms around myself.
"Lynn I'm not done with you.... not even close",.
He marched right up to me and wrapped an arm around my waist, and gripped my throat and chin with the other hand before he slammed his lips onto mine.
I literally melted in his arms as a whimper left my lips. Our tongues collided and if he were a tree, I would climb him. This embrace wasn't enough for me. I needed more of him.
But then something snapped me out of it. Knowing this wasn't what I needed. I needed Drake to explain and we had a lot to talk about. Sex wasn't going to fix this.
"W...wait", I murmured against his lips, pushing at his chest until I was several feet away from him.
"We can't do this.....", My lips were swollen from his kiss and one look at his made the urge to kiss him again strong but I held back.
"Lynn I'm not sorry for kissing you but I know we need to talk", He shoved his hand in his front pocket and looked up at him through hooded eyes. Some of his hair fell in front of his eyes and I had to ball up my hands into fists so that I didn't reach up and push it away. Fuck he's so sexy.
I looked over my shoulder to see if Luis wasn't peeking through the window with a bag of popcorn in his hands and I was glad he wasn't.
