Chapter 64: The Feelings for him
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"It's fine Luis, I'm fine", I marched down to the corner of the street to get as far as way from that club.
"How the hell do we order an Uber in London?",
Luis came up to me and wrapped up his hand around me.
"Hey", He whispered.
My nerves were all the place but I fought to calm them down as I turned my attention to my best friend.
Even though I felt completely humiliated back there, I couldn't stop thinking about Drake and how I will always defend him. "He doesn't deserve that Luis", I blew out and then laughed like a crazy person. "And as crazy as it sounds, I don't care what he does for a living. I want him even though my parents are Catholics. I want him more than I have ever wanted anyone, Luis",
A huge grin appeared on his lips as he chuckled. "I'm so glad to hear that Lynn", He pulled his phone out and showed me something. "A friend of mine just sent this over and I thought you would like to see it",
I stared down at his phone, realizing it was an article and allowed my eyes to quickly scan over the words.
~ A leak from XXX studios tells us that Hudson is leaving the industry. Two weeks before the AVN awards. Where is headed to next?~
I read the article heading several times before I glared up at Luis.
"He is quitting?", I asked.
He shrugged. "That's what it looks like. No coincidence there huh!", He paused to really stare at me. "It's obvious what this move means right?",
I mulled it over in my head, wondering exactly what it meant. As far as I know, Drake didn't know that I knew about his dark secrets. Was he planning to leave the industry before he even met me or.
Excited butterflies filled my stomach and the urge to for home was almost unbearable. I was safe to my Catholic parents. So then I needed to speak to Drake right now. I needed to understand all of this. My feelings for him weren't going away and no matter how many times, I thought about him being a sadist, I just found myself ignoring it.
"Luis, I need to get home",
He grinned at me again and nodded his head. "I thought you would never come around, let's go and get our shit then get the flight out of here.
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We landed back in Miami and I swear I was about to throw up. My nerves had calmed down on the flight but now that we were home, I was freaking out just a little bit. I had hoped for enough courage to go straight to Drake's home and demand answers but now the courage evaporated and I felt nauseous.
"Where to first buttercup?", Luis asked rolling our language towards the exist. My face flushed and my hands were shaking. I didn't know how to answer him so I kept quiet.
"Lynn don't you dare chicken out on me, I have got a perfectly good bag of popcorns to eat while I watch the scene. Between you and Drake",
That brought a laugh out of me, even . I was still ready to throw up
"Popcorns, seriously? Where did you even get........", I stopped talking the moment I saw the popcorn cart in the lobby. When the hell did he get time to do that?!
Luis stopped walking, grabbed my shoulders and turned me to glare in my eyes. "Listen I totally understand the nerves you have got running through you right now but I want you to know but I'm here for you, I will always be so let's go and get your man",
He wrapped an arm around me and tugged me along. Whether I wanted or not we were going to Drake's place. But I was going to do this alone. I don't want Luis munching on a popcorn behind me to throw me off
The Uber driver took us from the airport back to my place and seeing Drake's house made my heart pump like a jackhammer. There was an unfamiliar car in the driveway. But I thought nothing of it as it might be for someone Dakota knows. I wondered how she was doing. We haven't had time to talk since our last conversation and I hoped she was doing okay.
"Okay wish me luck", I straightened up my hair and went for the front door when Luis ran up and grabbed the handle before I could.
"And where do you think you going without me?",
I sighed. "I love you Luis but I really need to do this on my own",
He studied me for a long moment before stepping out of my way. I was surprised that he wasn't fighting me but he said nothing about it as I stepped around him and onto my front porch.
I was a ball of anxiety but this needed to be done. The feelings I had for Drake would never go away and the longer I put off this conversation, the longer. I would be hurting myself. No, this needed to happen today.
Making my way to his front door, I internally told myself that it was going to be fine. The truth would be out out there and we could figure out what to do next.
If there was even a next.
I knocked a few times while holding up my breath. Terrified that he would answer the door and I would chicken out. But that isn't who answered it at all. Two of the most gorgeous and nearly naked women I have never seen answered the door and looked me up and down. One was wearing a lingerie set beneath a wide open robe and the other was naked beneath her robe.
