Chapter 183
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I stared at her solemn expression, She says. "That's not it! it's just-"
"I don't care about why or even if they really care about me. The only thing i wanna know is why you guys are here." I cut her off. "This is not the place for werewolves to roam around!"
"Christal," She furrows her eyebrows. "We have no choice. This is the last order of Alpha Jason."
My eyes widened.
"What do you mean?" I exhaled, overwhelmed by my anxiety.
"He told us.." She trembles, "We won't be safe anywhere in the werewolf society anymore and he was right. After the war ended, everything he predicted happened. Didn't you know? This week, The RedBloodMoon ordered for the annihilation of every Bluestone werewolf."
Zyrus did what?
I shook my head, "That doesn't make sense, i mean we did conspire a war but citizens shouldn't be involved in the feud!"
It really doesn't make any sense. I may not be that smart in some subjects but i'm very well knowledgable in the field of the law of our species. In each war, the losing pack should only be stripped of their pack name, a warrior but not the normal citizens that weren't involved in the war.
So why?
Why did the Red Blood Moon tried to kill everyone?!
"I know, that's why i'm telling you this. We didn't have any choice but to choose the last option Alpha Jason gave us before his death. He told us a guy named 'Charles' will keep his end of the bargain." She sighs, "Seeing you here now, i think i get what's going on now."
She stares back at me with stern eyes, "What happened between you and him?"
I gulped, my anxiety growing as i looked back at her observing eyes. I took a step back and said. "Isn't it obvious? we fell apart."
Just as i said those words, i couldn't help but feel sorrowful. I kept thinking about him again, and it's just driving me mad. I hate how i had to fight myself over and over again by replying to those memories i had with him,
"Christal, is this really what you want? to be a queen of .. vampires?" She scrunches her face in disgust.
Upon seeing her expression, my stomach turned as i noticed how she hated the thought. Even when she tried to look away, i stepped infront of her and grabbed her cheeks to look at my eyes.
"Don't you dare look at me like that." I threatened.
"Like what?"
"Those eyes.. don't you dare look at me like i'm some fool!" I growled.
"Are you not!" She pushed me back. "Why are you doing this?! I understand why you betrayed the pack before! but i don't understand why you're betraying the whole society now! Because of that, we have to hide like some rodents in the streets, fearing the anger your mate is venting on us!"
I was shocked.
This is the first time i've seen her with such anxious eyes, it was also the first time she was displaying her hatred towards me.
I frowned.
"I-I.." She gasps, "I'm sorry i didn't mean to-"
"It's fine." I nodded silently. "I don't expect you to understand Carly, right now i can't deny that everyone around me is living their life in hell right now. But it's just as you said, i am betraying the whole society and even my mate. This.."
I chuckled bitterly, "This is the only path i've seen amidst this cursed life."
She cries, "No.. i'm sorry. It's just we've been trying so hard to survive all this time. I don't hate you, i just.. i mean we. We really want you back- if you can, you can lead us. We need someone to lead us."
I shook my head. "They won't let me lead them, i am a traitor."
She hugs me, her tight gripping around my back."I'm sorry for venting my anger on you. I don't know very well how much you're going through right now, but i know you're the one suffering the most. You're strong, you must have your reasons for doing this, i'm really sorry for not understanding you enough."
This is my fault, I pushed her to the point that she was starting to hate me.
I smiled with a pained expression after pushing her slowly away from me. "I really can't lead anyone, i can't even lead myself so how am i supposed to lead a few more?"
"Then please.. please let's just run away okay? i don't like this." She sobs, "I don't like how you're making everyone your enemy."
No.
It's too late.
I smiled, "I told you, this is the only choice i have."
She grabs my hand. "NO! there must be other choices-"
"There's none!" I yanked my hand back, "and don't even think about running away. I don't know why Jason ordered you to come begging at the feet of these vampires- but as soon as you stepped in here, you should know very well that you won't be escaping so easily- at least not after losing something. So stop being naive! werewolves are different from vampires."
I turned away from her, my back facing her as i held back my tears. "Leave, don't cause any trouble. I'll protect all of you at least while i'm Queen, i'll also think of a way to get you out of this mess. i promise, i'll make it up to you."
"Why?" She sobs.
I stayed silent.
"Why are you doing this? You aren't supposed to be like this! you shouldn't be giving yourself away like this!" She yells, her voice cracking.
I exhaled, a tear falling on my right cheek.
Damn it.
"You should be more selfish like you always have been! Save yourself! why? WHY DOES IT LOOK LIKE YOU'RE TRYING TO SAVE EVERYBODY?!"
"Stop it." i mumbled.
I hate how she was pushing me right now. There's a lot of eyes watching us so i was anxious that i was showing too much emotion that could ruin my plans. Yet even knowing that i still couldn't help but listen to her wails.
How could i not listen?
She's my best friend, an important person who's just worrying about me.
"You.. you are not supposed to be like this at all." She sobs hard.
Even when i sensed her falling on the ground, i can't manage to comfort her nor reply to her questions. All i wanted to do at that time was get away from her.
I don't want her to influence me, if she does, i might really end up running away with them. If so, then this damned curse won't stop with me.
"Leave," I closed my eyes in frustration. "Don't tell them you met me,"
"No!"
"Carly please." I lowered my head, even though i wasn't facing her. It kills me to imagine how much she was crying right now. I said, "Do this last favor for me-"
"Last favor?! What do you think you're trying to do now?!" She comes beside me, grabbing my hand as she forced me to face her.
I looked at her, exposing my tears. "This is the last time! so please, just do what you're told to."
I pulled my hand away from her, stomping away from our spot and returning to my bedroom. I knew i was used to this heavy feeling inside of me, yet the pain always feels fresh whenever i'm met with these kinds of situations.
I sat in front of the vanity mirror.
"Don't listen to her." I smiled painfully to myself. "That's not true at all, i wasn't trying to save everybody."
"I'm just trying to save myself."
♕ALPHAKING'S ZYRUS POV♕
"I'LL KILL YOU." I growled with menace while grabbing Alpha Louis's collar, my bloodlust itching to kill him right now.
"AlphaKing Zyrus!" Beta Jaxon grabs my arm, he leans in and whispers. "If you kill him, other alphas will rebel! please just appease you-"
I pushed him off me.
"APPEASE MY ANGER? THIS STUPID FOOL DARED TO USE MY NAME TO ORDER THE ANNIHILATION OF BLUESTONE WITHOUT MY PERMISSION!"
Alpha Iver stands on his seat abruptly with anxious eyes. "AlphaKing! I know you're angry but it does make sense to kill them since they might conspire against you again."
Tsk, another annoying pest!
I growled angrily at Alpha Louis then stood up but not before breaking his arm into half to vent my anger.
He screams in pain.
"YOU DARE ACT BY YOURSELF? DO YOU KNOW YOU JUST BROKE THE LAW?" I growled, "SINCE YOU DARE BREAK IT, I'LL JUST BREAK YOU TOO AS A PUNISHMENT."
