Chapter 251
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I stared at Della’s retreating figure with helplessness, feeling hollow in my chest where she unknowingly reaped my heart out and left me bleeding.
I sat in the chair in the room for who knows how long, just reflecting on all the pain I had caused her and the grave mistake I had made yesterday. I regretted not the night we shared but that I had taken action at the wrong time.
“Alpha, how…” Henry came in and opened the door without warning, which brought me back to reality. However, I was probably looking so down, especially after I removed my mask, that he was left speechless.
He pointed inside the room and outside a couple of times as he tried to find the words creeping from the back of his tongue. “I saw Princess Della coming out, and I thought… I thought something might finally happen between you and her…”
“But it seems I was wrong?” he asked, face filled with caution.
Letting out a bitter smile, I shook my head and heaved a heavy sigh. “Nothing happened… or at least, nothing like I’d hoped. She’s keeping her distance, all because of my... foolishness last night.”
He raised an eyebrow at me, taking time to register my words before his eyes almost budged out of his sockets from shock. Rushing forward, he sat on the chair beside me and asked, “What? Did you… Wait, did she actually come here to confess? Here in the temple? Because of last night?”
I nodded, having the same shock as he had when I first learned it.
Were what happened last night, my kiss, my hugs, so much of a grave sin that she actually came into the Moon Goddess’s temple to confess?
I nodded, feeling the prick of main in my hollow chest again. “Yes. I followed her here. I thought after last night, we would be somehow closer to each other. But it looks like I was only fooling myself.”
What happened last night was still as vivid as day for me, endlessly replaying in my mind and giving me false hope and joy.
After three years of Della being gone, I’ve never been looked at another woman, flirter, or much less have sex. Despite that, I knew that I shouldn’t have been reckless.
With what happened years ago, it’s without a doubt that I gave her trauma, and she needed time to heal. Hence, I needed to take things slow, but last night, seeing her in that dress, her scent engulfing my nostrils, and her being so close to me… It took away my reasons.
The mere idea that she was probably sleeping with Albert and raising their child together for the past three years was like a nightmare I couldn’t wake up from. Before I knew it, I was filled with jealousy and rage that my rationality went out of the window, and the urge to be one with her body again took over me.
Despite all our denials, last night was a magical night for both of us. It was perfect, and we both enjoyed it, but she kept denying that face and wanted to forget about it instead.
We were surrounded by silence for a while until I heard him sigh and give me a smile as something glinted in his eyes. “Alpha, why don’t you just tell her the truth? Let Princess Della know that you’re… well, you. Wakeland needs Deadtails. They wouldn’t risk turning against you now.”
I shook my head. If only things were that easy.
“It’s not that simple. If she finds out now, she’ll hate me even more. Yes, she might have been with Albert and had his child before we separated… but my mistakes were far worse. I nearly cost her freedom,” I explained.
Della was the Lycan Princess. For her love for me, she sacrificed her honor and title, but in return, she almost lost her freedom and paid for Flora's mistakes. Over the past three years, I have reflected on everything that happened between us, and it’s clear that I was the one who ruined our relationship. I pushed her away.
I’ve hurt her a thousand times more than what I felt back then, and she felt betrayed several times that all the pain I felt now couldn’t possibly be enough to pay for everything I owe her.
Clenching my hands into a fist, I vowed, “Now that she’s here, I’ll surely do anything to get her back with me. This time, I’d do anything to make her happy. I’ll be even willing to accept her child with Albert and raise him as my own if she want.”
Henry nodded in understanding, but then he suddenly looked back up at me, and his eyes lit up. “Speaking of children… last night, I saw a boy nearby. He looked almost like you did at his age. I thought I was seeing things, that he might even be… well, your son.”
I laughed at him and shook my head. “My son? What’s going on in your mind?”
He laughed with me and brushed the back of his hair in embarrassment. “It was a spur of the moment. I actually thought that he was your illegitimate son or something. But no, he’s just the son of a staff member here at the manor.”
Then, he immediately snapped his fingers and added, “Anyway, I reached out to the girl we assigned to the Wakeland Times to look after Princess Della.”
I sat up straight, focused on him, and demanded, “She could be a good ally for Della, but she couldn’t let Della know she’s working for me. No one can know.”
The Wakeland Times could stir the public opinion of the entire Wakeland, and it’s a crucial matter for Della. It’s a double-edged sword that could either bring glory to her or ruin her reputation, which explains why Kendrell pays great attention to ensure it’s in the palm of his hand.
Henry understood my meaning and nodded his head. “Understood, Alpha.”
I leaned back on my seat and massaged the bridge of my nose. “If I want her back… there’s still a long road ahead.”
“Say it!” I growled in a low voice when I felt Henry kept on sending me hesitant glances.
Clearing his throat, he reported, “There’s one more thing, Alpha. Luna Natasha’s had enough of Flora lurking around everywhere and looking for you on a daily basis. She asked if we could… maybe send Flora off to Wakeland.
