Chapter 32
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"He is sweet and has that piercing on his lip that makes me attracted to him and Everytime he talks I feel butterflies samah.
I dont want a relationship but he doesn't seem to let me go even one day I told him that we should stop" she said sighing loudly
She was going to cry really soon
"When I told him that we should stop he used his magic and Bam we were already in his bed and he kept asking if we should stop but all I kept answering was a no" she said shouting.
She was angry now.
"Can you believe me samah can you believe it.
He doesn't want a relationship with me.
I am only good for sex samah.
I feel like trash.
Can you believe that even after how I feel I still don't want to stop.
The way he doesn't want to let me go is the way I don't want him to let me go also.
I am stupid samah." she said as tears streamed down from her beautiful eyes.
She didn't deserve to cry.
She was just trying to be stronger than her feelings.
They would break her and leave her defenseless just like what happened to me.
It would leave her in the dark.
He was the one to save her and whatever he was saying was pushing her deeper in the hole that they both dug.
When Abelardo forced himself into me I spent a three weeks in room and all that I received were comforting and smoothing words from Martha and her mother in the morning and almost five when she was going home.
At night every night that Abelardo came home he would tell me the most ugliest words that exist.
The most hurting words that exist but no one knew anything about it.
I didn't live a life of chocolates here.
Abelardo was there to make sure of that.
Every late night he would come in my room slamming the door open and sitting on my bed.
The words that he told me when I told him to marry me were true.
He told me that I was getting married to a beast.
Every word I still remember it.
It was still freshly written on my brain.
I will give you what you want samah but know that you are marrying a beast the you would wish that you never crossed paths with.
One day he came in my room shirtless and pants with no belt and sat on my bed.
He started touching my bare thighs underneath the thick silk sheets that were covering me.
I scotched away from him bring the sheets with me to hide my naked self away from him.
The whole time he remained quiet not uttering a word only watching with eyes that looked dangerous to the point that I wanted to cry.
Was he going to force himself into me again.
He started moving closer to me as I let out a whimper and started breathing hard
He wouldn't do it again would he.
I brought my legs next to me and tears sterted to build up in my eyes.
I was getting scared and I was one step away from screaming.
He forcefully pulled my legs making my back hit the soft matress of the bed as he started touching me again this time close to the middle of my thighs.
My heart was drumming wildly as he did all that.
He brought himself on top of me as I let out a scream.
No one was going to hear me.
He immediately brought his hand on my mouth muffling my screams as I kept turning my head in every direction wanting to free myself.
"Shut up samah you wanted to marry me didn't you" he said as his hand travelled up in my shirt.
I wanted to die.
I started crying silently as I was left defenseless underneath him.
He brought his leg forcefully separating my legs from where I crossed them afraid that what happened repeat it self.
He got off me and sat again on the bed his hand away from my t-shirt as he watched me struggle to even sit up going to the same corner I was in.
"P... Please" I said my hands together like I was asking for mercy.
He looked at me for a long time and released a wicked laugh which brought goosebumps on my joint arms.
"Now you are begging I knew you wanted me samah" he said and started removing his pants as I shook my head tears falling.
I wanted to talk but I couldn't.
This time he pulled me using my arms as his big palms roughly held me in place with him trying to move the sheets away.
I kept shaking my head no whispering nos over and over gain.
My shirt was off in seconds as I heard the ripping of material sound.
I kept saying please no as he looked at me and slammed his lips on mine.
I felt myself going numb as he angryly hissed for me to kiss him.
In that moment the words that he said to me came back floading my head like they were mocking me.
You know what samah I will marry you but I will show you what liars like you get when they want to marry monsters samah.
As I was sinking in my thoughts I almost didn't hear his voice from downstairs shouting that he was home.
He never said that but for some unknown reason he did today which made me wonder why.
I heard his loud footsteps following the path that we took which led to the t.v room where I was sitting not knowing even that the movie ended.
