Chapter Thirty Six
I stared at the beautiful girl in the mirror for the umpteenth time, her dark hair up in a curly burn with tendrils on both sides of her face. Her emerald eyes stood out with the highlight of mascara.
They had grey specks in them that sparkled like stars of the night, her lips enchanting with the pink lipstick while her skin was glowing.

She was wearing a beautiful white dress that stopped above her knees, its straps sleeveless with a V shape at the front and the back, with a white belt after the V and then a wild skirt.
With white strap heel, she looked so beautiful. Looking in the mirror I could now stand with confidence and tell the world that am beautiful, I don't think there's any fault in admiring my beauty.
But though all that is there, my heart was tightened in nervousness and the palms of my hands were starting to sweat. I couldn't why of all times it was now am being nervous.
It's now am starting to see the future that am heading for, the mental peace that I had always yearned was also starting to appear.
That loneliness that I hate the most wasn't there, Gale had taken away all that giving me a peace of mind that I can never fathom and now in a few hours he would be my husband.
I smiled to the mirror, trying to cool my nerves and act calm but trust me when I say that it isn't as easy as every one hoped.

I felt a hand on my shoulder and turned to it's owner, seeing Maggie's smiling eyes made a bit calm.
"You look so beautiful Mel... Come here " She whispered the last part while pulling me into a hug. Her hands patting my back softly making me feel tears well up in my arms.
Never in my life had I ever thought that on my wedding day my emotions would be so messy like am on my red days.
I pulled away from Maggie's hug, she looked at me like a mother to her daughter. The caring look in her orbs made the lump in throat bigger and thicker, though nothing was different because ever since me and Maggie became close she looked at me like a daughter but today it made me feel so emotional and she noticed.

"Don't you dare cry.... You will make an ugly bride " she said immediately while holding my face in her arms and I chuckled softly.
It was now that I noticed she was wearing a pink long dress, with open sleeves but closed up at the front. Her hair was curled and falling softly over her left shoulder with simple light make up.
I really have people who love me so much but through all this I never realised until now.
Watching the darkness through the curtains of my curly hair I started to realise that being in the hospital alert and alive while experiencing physical pain was far better than the stab of memories.
I didn't want to watch more of those days where Gale was with me, days when we're happy. Why are those ghosts back to hunt me now when am in least need of it.
Especially that wedding day, I didn't want to see any memory concerning it. No it was very painful.
The car came to a halt in the courts parking lot, the magnificent building stood tall in the city. Gale and Mr. Rogers stood at the front waiting for me and Maggie to arrive, I frowned after looking around for while but Mother Pauline is no where to be seen.
"We're here " Maggie said after turning off the car, her loving eyes turned to me and she nodded for me to open the car door as she turned back to her side and did the same.
I stepped out of the car after opening the door, my gaze darted back to the entrance of the building. Its glass walls showing the city at its front but Gale and Mr Rogers who were standing before it a while ago weren't there any more.
It was just me and Maggie in the lot, tears welled up in my eyes though I tried not to show it. She had promised but as usual she is not here.
" I snorted at the painful memories and turned my head to look away, having them play in front of me was getting on my nerves.
But when I turned my head to the side I saw Gale standing a few meters while watching me, he was leaning against something with the corner of his lips lifted in a smirk.
"Gale " I whispered softly, though I knew he wouldn't hear me. I wanted to stand up and go to him but I was so afraid what if he disappears again.
"Am right here, Bubble "
That deep voice attacked my senses and my eyes widened in shock and my jaw dropped.
Did he just hear me?
Did he really reply to me?
Though mother Pauline wasn't here and she was the one that I need most to stand by side through this day it didn't deprive me of the happiness and excitement rushing through my veins as we neared the entrance of the building.
Even though it was a small wedding we had booked the smallest hall around here which holds up to 200 people and my people didn't make that number but we wanted to make this day so special.
We stood at the entrance for a while waiting and in a few minutes a cab came rushing by and came to a stop at the front of the building, Jennifer rushed out in a gold dress.
She paid the cab driver and rushed over to where I was standing with Maggie " am so sorry am late " she stated as we looked over each other.
She was looking really beautiful at the moment, in this life I have met many people that care about me. How long will it take me to realise this ?
I guess through death right, yes I know that I have many people who love and care for me. People that a willing to help me stand on my own two feet once again.
But am selfish, okay?
Am so selfish when it comes to that love that am not willing to let go. Am hurting every one out there that is waiting for me to wake up.
Seeing Gale standing right there with that smile and I always missed while looking at me the way he used to made me feel like death is better right?
" Why did you leave me Gale?" That question that always bothered me was right there in front of us out of my lips and my eyes were pinned on him waiting for his beautiful smile.
"I didn't want to " he whispered softly and my heart skipped.
" Let's go inside " Maggie replied before I did and shut up immediately, we rushed inside down the hallway towards closed wooden doors at the end of the first floor hall way.
We stood in place with Jennifer at the front then Maggie and then me, the doors were pulled open to a small gathering of friends who all turned to look at me.
I didn't know most of these people except those clients that I had worked for then my dad, Gale and his mom. Well looking at the elegant woman at the front I WS really surprised because I didn't expect her to come.
Even the long lost Patricia had come, those silly days when we worked at Maggie's dinner. University days were at least fun with her around.
My colleagues at the company and the kids I had grown up with at the orphanage had also come. At the front stood the judge waiting with Gale at the side.
Maggie handed me a banquet of white peonies, I felt like asking her where she had got these but time wasn't on my side.
Jennifer walked down the aisle first with a small white banquet of pink and white peonies, her gold dress swaying like the sun as she reached the end.
Then it was Maggie's turn, she was holding a small pillow and on top of it was a pair of silver couple rings.
Did these things come from the sky because am not that sure as to where they all came, Maggie walked down the aisle according to the music. If only my mom was here.
I couldn't stop my self wishing as Maggie reached the end, I sighed softly as the music changed.
With no one in front of me I could see Gale clearer, he was a black and white customized suit. With black trousers and a black button up shirt with a white tie and white blazer.
His chestnut hair combed back and neat with gel while his orbs were on me watching me as I was to him. Though I was really nervous and my palms were sweating with him looking at me like that made me a bit calm.
I stepped on to the red carpet of the aisle and took steps to the inside, slowly following the music playing in the back ground. His eyes were more clearer with each step, holding mine making the world around me disappear.
I didn't even realise when Mr. Rogers had stood up until he was standing in front of me with a teasing smile. He had joined me halfway ready to continue and hand me over to my husband to be in a few minutes.
Hearing the voice that I missed so much, my eyes pinned on the handsome man in front of me unable to look away even for a minute.
Deep in me it was becoming so hard to control my self and my emotions, a lone tear fell down my cheeks and my heart drummed hard against my ribcage.
"Why are you hear Amelia ?" He asked softly and I couldn't bare to look at him any more, my eyes lowered to floor as the question that I didn't except sunk in to my brain.
"I can't leave without you Gale " I replied as I looked at him again, waiting for his reaction. He pushed him self to stand away from whatever he was leaning against earlier, he took steps to where I was.
I felt unable to breath nor utter a word with each step he took until he was closer to me, he knelt down on the floor with one knee. His chocolate eyes locking with me making me so emotional that I almost burst in to tears.
I just couldn't believe that he was this closer to me after all those weeks, he was right here.
"You can leave without me Amelia and you know it " when he words fell, I froze not knowing how to react right now.
I shook my head immediately " I can't... "
"Yes, you can " he replied instantly cutting me off. I was now completely not understanding any of this that was going on, didn't he want to see me here.
" Life is lonely without you Amelia but your chart has not yet ended baby " he added softly and my lips parted.
I knew he could see the confusion in my eyes and lifted his hand, bringing it closer to my face and wiped away the tear that had fallen earlier then cupped my cheek. My emerald eyes still pinned on him like a bag of treasure that would be stolen if I look away.