Chapter Twenty
I took a seat in my office chair and looked up at Kenneth, he was staring at me with worry.
"Are you sure, you can work today?"  He questioned as I leaned back in my chair. I felt a head ache start to rise and my eyes fell shut.

"Don't worry I will manage " I replied. I realised that I had never got a chance to see this humble and caring side of Kenneth.
A slow smile crept on to my face,
"I didn't know you had this soft side " I joked.
I wondered whether he was smiling at my failed attempt to crack a joke. My eyes were firmly closed, I wasn't ready to open them to the light.
"You didn't tell me why you were crying ?" Kenneth questioned and I didn't answer, he had asked a while ago and still I didn't answer.
I acted like I didn't hear anything and mostly because I wasn't in the mood to talk about it. What am I to say?

I used to talk so highly of Gale, like he was the prince of all men now what am to say. That my prince cheated on me with some crazy bitch that kept claiming him every time we met.
I would rather keep it to my self, when Kenneth realised that I won't answer. He just said his good byes and left.
I asked Jennifer to delay my meeting by thirty minutes so I could relax and calm my nerves. I needed to hold my meeting nicely especially now that I was going to be thrown straight in to the lime light.
I was starting to wonder why I had chosen this celebrity couple, can I manage in such a condition.

Yes I can manage, maybe work is enough to get me to stop thinking about Gale, the tiny bit of me yearned for me to go back at the penthouse and listen to his explanation but my trust issues were back.
I decided to bury my self in work, I debated on whether to take on a second case like most lawyers. Handling two cases at the same time will help me control my mind. I started figure out odds of the one I was handling at the moment, then my mind drifted to mother Pauline.
I felt the need to see that old lady. The door opened and I stared up at Jennifer as she walked in with a cup of coffee. She knew I wasn't okay and I could see the curiosity in her eyes.
I cleared the table for her and she placed the mug in front of me then took a seat in the chair facing me.
"So what happened between you and Gale "  She questioned and I picked up my black coffee taking a sip.
"Why would you conclude that something happened between us ? "  I questioned back then took another sip my gaze focusing on the beauty besides me.
"You asked me to not direct his calls and then you walked in here with Rogers and you look like that " she added gesturing to my face.
A sad smile crept up my face when I realised that was far more better than Rebecca when it comes to friendship and truly I need a friend now.
" He cheated on me " I whispered and her eyes turned to slits, you could see the wheels turning in her head. I could see the doubt in her expression.
" Doctor Gale, can't do that to you. He loves you " she added and I once thought like her. I held high belief in Gale's principles and they also failed me.
"I don't know what to believe Jennifer, I saw him in bed with Rebecca " I replied bitterly.
Jennifer stared at me like I had grown two head, I lowered my eyes. I hate the fact that I show my pain easily and having eyes on me now like this made me feel so exposed.
My heart constricted in pain and tears welled up in my green eyes again.
"What if what you saw wasn't the truth, what did he say ? " I looked up at Jennifer then down, shaking my head.
I felt like from the beginning I should have trusted my instincts, this relationship was a mistake and all the signs were there.
If Gale's mom can love any other girl for his son then what went wrong with me and then I lost Rebecca.
It's not like I missed her like how I used to at first, but you can't deny the fact that I had a friend in her. She was my only girlfriend since childhood and I  made one crazy mistake of telling her everything about me.
I trusted her so much but then I also trusted Gale, the man that I love, how can I deny the fact I still love him even after all that happened.
I pushed my chair back and reached out for my bag. " Can you go to the penthouse and pick up my car for me, I need to go somewhere"
I placed the keys in front of Jennifer and she nodded. Am glad she never asked that much, I didn't want to talk about everything I do.
Jennifer walked out of the office and I turned in my office chair facing the city.
I wasn't interested in the view, I was just locked my thoughts. I just couldn't what I say in the morning from crossing my mind.
I turned in my office chair when I had a message tone on my phone, it was Jennifer telling me she had just arrived in the parking lot.
I gathered a few of my things that seemed important and I headed downstairs, the elevator dinged open and raised my eyes and my lips formed a straight.
Rebecca stood in front of me in all her glory and devious heart, she was wearing a nice grey suit with her brown hair falling down her shoulders.
Her brown eyes locked with me and I noticed a sweet smile form on her face.  I was in no need for all this so I looked away and started walking away from her.
" Running won't help much, face it Amelia I won " I had her voice and froze in my steps, I stared a head trying to show her that none her words were affecting me the way she wanted them too.
"Then buy a cake or a bottle of wine and celebrate. Am in no mood for your nonsense " Since she wanted a reply I gave her one and continued to walk away.
She didn't know how hard I trying to stop my mind from thinking about her and Gale. I was fighting so hard to not cry again or show my pain.
To her all this was just a game, I wonder whether she really cares for Gale as she says but why did it matter any more.
He chose her over me and my heart did it's best to believe all that.
I took the keys from Jennifer and hopped in to the car, I could see her worried face and I knew she would have agreed to be with me but I needed time and space.
I let her go with an okay and I drove off, slowly a tear again slipped down my cheek and then another followed.
I was crying silently for the pain I felt, how could he just touch another woman like that without thinking of me.
Did I ever mean something to him even just once or I was nothing.
I couldn't see clearly any more so I  got off the road and parked my car. I leaned back in my seat and hid my face in the palms of my hands.
I didn't what I was yearning for all day, I cried my heart.
I cried like there was no tomorrow, it hurt so much.
"Why ?" as I hit the steering wheel with my fists.
"I trusted and gave you every little thing I had. So why ?" It felt so good to just say it out loud like that.
" h..how C..could you do this to me Gale ?" I whispered as I laid my head on the steering wheel.
My heart wrenched, throat tightening more as dejection swirled around me.
I felt like my world was crumbling around me like I had nothing left.
I sat up and laid back closing my eyes, I was doing my best to calm down but seemed like all my efforts were nothing.
Memories of when I first met Gale surfaced my mind and then the events that follow.
Suddenly I felt it, some thing that I was waiting for all along. My hunch I could feel it and it was telling me that am wrong.
It was telling me that my Gale can't do such a thing, but how about what I saw.
Then what if am wrong, I felt a burst of energy within me. If I can't trust Gale then I better trust my hunch cause never in life has it ever lied to me.
I wiped my tears firmly and continued to drive, I was deciding to not believe what I saw but what I felt.
I drove down the main road and then I branched off to a dirt road.
Dirt swirled in the air blocking off the view of the trees on each side of the rood. A tall tower with a bell on top came in to my view and soon all the buildings of the catholic church were visible.
My lips curled into a small smile as I drove by the church and then the old buildings of the orphanage appeared. I drove towards the bar gate and halted the car a few metres away from it.
I arranged my appearance and smoothed out my clothes. I honked the horn making my presence known.
I could see more little kids come to see who had come and most of the nuns, the gate was opened and I drove right through.
I stopped the car and grabbed my everything then I stepped out and locked it.
I sighed as I breathed in the familiar air, my gaze roamed around the environment. Nothing seemed to had changed ever since I was last seen here.
I felt home and calm.
I kneeled down in front of the kids that had surrounded me with a smile, I remember being like them once.
Little and naive, this place was good for them. I raised in time as I saw mother Pauline come down stairs of the U fashioned story building, she was wearing her nun black cloth, with aunt Maria by her side. They were deep in confusion.
I shifted my gaze just to her and my eyes glistened with tears, she had aged more, you could see the wrinkles under his blue eyes but apart from that she was still the same and beautiful.
I excused my self from the children and strode towards her, my heels clicking on the floors with each step I took, slow her gaze lifted to me and her eyes shone with happiness.
I sprinted towards her and threw my arms around her, holding her tight.
I missed her so much " Mother " I whispered pulling away to look at her. Her blue eyes locked with my green ones.
You could see the tenderness and care in her soft gaze.
" How are you " she whispered, her fingers pushing strands of my hair behind my ear.
"Am fine " I whispered and she shook her head.
"Why are you lying dear, am your mother aren't I ?" She added and I nodded " Telling me why you were crying  "
Hearing her care and knowing that she still knew me more than anyone else in the world warmed my heart.
Even though the world didn't let me get to know my real parents, I had her and she was the best mother in the world.
" mother " I whispered and she nodded for me to continue.
"Can I spend the night here ?"
"Of course dear, this is still your home. Your free to come back any time you want "
I hugged her again and silently sobbed. I was going to tell her all about it cause in all this I yearned for her advice