Chapter Nineteen
It's during these moments like these that I think Gale is too understanding for his own good. He had asked me to spend another night away from him only to be sure that I had finally decided to stay by his side.
I don't know if I will ever get used to Sarah's presence cause she scares me. I was starting to give up on pleasing her.

Gale loved me and that's all that matters, as long as he keeps fighting for me I also won't stop fighting for him.
At this time I had decided to just focus on Gale and investing in my future, I didn't want to be a lawyer for long. I wanted to start a company some day.
I added a black blazer to my outfit and pushed my black curls to my left shoulder. I stared at my self in the mirror, my green eyes shining with happiness.
When you're loved, You also learn love yourself.
I had never looked at my self like I am doing now. I looked happy and care free and a bit unique.
I grabbed my bag and I did put on my heels. I got Gale's phone off the bedside table and placed it in my bag.

He had forgot it here last night so maybe dropping it off at our penthouse would be the best excuse to see him.
A smile crept up my face and I knew by the heat that I was blushing. I don't know if I will ever stop feeling this way when it comes to Gale.
It's something I had to get used, I wonder after all this time why it w becoming more hard to hide my feelings for him.
I stepped out of the apartment and locked doors, I had decided to give this key to Maggie. I knew she had one but I had decided I won't needing one after all.

I won't be spending another night away from Gale ever again so I was handing the whole place to Maggie. I knew that after her divorce with her husband it was her sanctuary.
The streets were so crowded and the early morning breeze was calm as the sun started to peek out of the blue skies with a little bit of pink and orange.
I hailed a cab, I just couldn't walk to the penthouse in these heels. I wondered what Gale was doing. He could be making breakfast for the both of us.
I can just eat with him so that he doesn't drop it off at my office. I paid the driver when we arrived and stepped out. The guard at the lobby recognized me immediately and opened the glass doors for me with a good morning.
I replied with a small smile of my own, and I walked to the series of elevators.
Suddenly I felt a hunch, something was wrong. I felt a bitter taste in my mouth and worry seeped through my veins.
I hated these hunches for one reason, they were always right and I being me. I gave them much importance than they deserve.
The elevator doors dinged open and I stepped out in to the familiar corridors. My heels clicked as I moved towards our door. I wondered what was going to happen and when.
I just hoped that all this wasn't about Gale, I don't know if I can manage when anything happens to him.
Oh mother Mary please don't let anything happen to my Gale.
My eyes fell shut for a few minutes as I stood in front of our door. I was begging God that nothing should happen to my Gale.
I sighed and pulled out the keys from my bag, I slid them in to the key hole and opened the door. I knew Gale may have had me open the door and was waiting patiently but reality was different.
The whole place was so silent and dark for a bright morning. I started to wonder to if Gale had spent the night here or some where else.
If he was here then there would be some noise right? I walked over to the balcony doors and pulled the curtains apart letting the light seep in.
The whole place was so clean except the glass on the table but everything else was just like I had left it. I headed down the small hallway towards our bedroom, the door was wide open. Gale loved to leave it like that and I had no problem since we leave alone.
I was planning to walk inside the room and check for Gale but I froze spotting him in bed.
My whole body shuddered and I felt a nausea hit hard that I had onto the wall nearby for support.
The loud stumble in my heels woke Gale up, my heart pounded in pain while I felt like draining my stomach of all I had yesterday.
A lump grew in my throat and a few tears dropped down my oval face.
"Amelia.. " I had Gale's voice and turned to him. He was already sitting up his wide eyes glued to the shameless human being next to him, I guess he didn't get enough of her last night.
So this is why he had asked me to stay away for a night so he could spend it with someone else. He had made it clear that I was wasting so much time on him, my life, time and even the heart I put in was useless.
My whole expression turned cold and my lips curled in to a bitter smile when I noticed his eyes pleading for me to understand.
I couldn't stop shaking my head bitterly, even after what I was seeing he still wanted me to believe his pleads.
I turned to leave, I couldn't bear the breaking of my heart anymore. I just wanted to run far away from here, how I wish it was a dream and I have to wake up when everything is okay.
My whole world was crashing at my feet.
"Amelia.. " I heard that voice again, the voice I loved so much laced with a plea for me to turn and hear him out.
But I just couldn't do it, I couldn't bare the pain of looking at his face and realising that he had betrayed me.
I took a step away from him, I just wanted to race away from all this. Memories flashed in front of my eyes, it was painful.
I felt every wall in this place start to suffocate, I wanted out. My legs were screaming for me to not stop.
Of all people why you Gale, why didn't have to be you. This is what I was so afraid of in the first place. I knew you would break me.
This is what I was afraid of in the first place, I thought my Gale was different. I walked over to my bag and took it in my grip.
My gaze roamed the place through my blur eyes and I sobbed quietly, I remembered the first time we came to this place.
The time when Gale bought this apartment for me, that's when I started to trust him completely with my whole life.
That night I had given him everything, my heart and body without regretting it.
Something in me was telling to me to trust him and listen to what he has to say but I just couldn't.
I can't trust him again so he can break me, I reached in to my bag and removed his phone, I stared at it and slowly I placed it down on the table, my eyes landing on that glass again.
There was something suspicious about that glass but now it concerned me less.
I saw Gale coming, he was shirtless with only a pair of pajama pants on. I turned on my heel to walk away but two hands snaked around my waist.
I felt myself being pulled to his chest, and he leaned his face in to the nape of my neck. I continued to sob quietly afraid that this maybe the last time I experience his touch or his breath fanning my neck.
After all he did, why did I have to react like this. Why did I love Gale this much.
His eyes, his hair and cologne, no I have this minute, I just have to get out of here quick.
I tried to wiggle out of his tight grip but my efforts seemed in vain, he was far much more stronger than me.
"Let me go " I whispered but it felt like he wasn't listening, he soon turned me around.
And I was looking up at him, "Amelia I can... I..  " I wasn't listening anymore, my eyes drifting to the woman that stood behind him with a bedsheets wrapped around her body.
Bed sheets that I had bought with my own money, and she had a smug look on her face showing me that won.
Of course she can have him for all I care, I turned my hard gaze to Gale and locked my blur eyes with him. I wanted to see the guilt but there was none. Still the proud Gale as always.
"You know, am not listening to whatever you have got to say. Let me go Gale " I said bitterly. I knew I was acting more stronger to show Rebecca it affected me less but I was breaking inside.
I stepped out of his grip and turned on my heel, I wiped my tears and headed out of the room. I didn't bother to look back as the door banged close behind me.
I felt like my legs would just working any minute soon, why did it have to be like this between us Gale. If you wanted to be with Rebecca you should have told me soon and not let me see this.
I didn't need you two throwing your affection for each other in my face.
What did I do wrong, I loved you this much and took risks for you. I did things I never do all my life for you. The elevator dinged open in the lobby and I stepped.
I sighted my car but I didn't have the energy to ride so I just walked out of the building slowly. I was so oblivious to my surroundings that's until I reached an empty silent street.
I sat by the pavement and stared at the empty road, I felt so numb.
I didn't care if where I was sitting was not clean enough for my suit, all I was thinking of now was Gale and his betrayal.
I didn't know whether to believe Gus pleading eyes for me or what I saw. I didn't give a damn about any expression on Becca's face, it's not like I cared about what she thought.
All I cared about was what I saw in Gale, and why did that glass on the table capture my attention numerous times. Now I just thinking about nothing.
I noticed a black Audi passing by before it stopped inches away from me. I lifted my blurred gaze to Kenneth as he stepped out of the car.
I didn't care about why he was doing here or what he was doing in this area. I felt like I had someone to lean on, I knew we weren't close any more and I suspected him a bit but now I just need a shoulder to lean on.
Some one who can hold me when I cry and not ask a thing. I ran to him, throwing my arms around him.
I felt him stiffen but I cared less, slowly his arms wrapped around me and I sobbed in his chest, I wanted the pain to stop.
I wanted it all to disappear, I just wanted to stop thinking about the man I love this much.
Why did I have to love to some one this much ?