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I asked Mark's assistant and only then did I know that he had gone on a business trip to City A.
He would be back in two days.
I let out a sigh of relief.Usually,I hoped that he wouldn't be so busy and could spend more time with me,but at this moment,I hoped that he would be busier.
As long as he didn't spend time with Lily.
I made an appointment to meet Nicole.I was hesitant about whether to tell her about my illness.
If I was really going to die,I hoped she could be prepared in advance.
I was just about to say something when Nicole sipped her milk tea and casually said,"I really want to go to City A for a trip!"
City A?
I was very sensitive to this place.
Nicole handed me her phone and said,"Look,the couple just got back together and they're already showing their affection."
It was a WeChat Moments post by Lily.
A three-second short video.
In the picture,half of the woman's smiling face was bright and beautiful.She winked playfully at the camera.Behind her was the man's cold face.He was on the phone,and when he noticed the camera,he smiled faintly.
The caption read:The workaholic has finally gone astray!Thank you,Mr.Mark,for accompanying me to have fun(*^▽^*)
Nicole sighed and envied their fairy-tale love out loud.She praised them for being childhood sweethearts and for getting back together so naturally.
She asked me,"If they get married,how much money should we give as a wedding gift?"
Nicole's words were like a swarm of bees buzzing.I couldn't hear a single word.
I could only see those particularly dazzling words.
He was so busy that he didn't have time to reply to my message asking if he would come back for dinner two days ago.
He was so busy that he didn't have time to tell me that he was going out of the city.
He didn't have time to accompany me to the hospital for the examination.
But he had time to play with Lily.
Mark,my time may be running out.Do you know that?
If you don't spend more time with me,you really won't be able to see me in the future.
On the third day,Mark finally came back.
I felt like crying every day when I sat at home,so I got up and went out for a stroll.I missed the moment when he came back home.
When I opened the door and found that he was back,my first reaction was that I must look really ugly with my messy hair and haggard face.
Mark didn't even look up and said coldly,"We're going to have dinner at the ancestral house tonight.Get ready.The makeup artist will be here soon."
In the past,when I heard the news of going to the ancestral house for dinner,I would have been on high alert.But at this moment,I just wanted to look at him a few more times.
I won't be able to see him in the future.
He was impatient with my silence and frowned as he looked up.
"Don't you want to go?"
He made a move as if he was going to stand up.I didn't care about anything and stumbled towards him.
I hugged him desperately.
"Today is my fertile day,Mark.Give me a child."
Baby,I'm sorry.Mom is too selfish.I can't stand the thought of Mark being affectionate with other women after I'm gone.
If I have a child,he will remember me.
Even if he remembers me not as Laura,but as the mother of the child,that's okay.
I'm so scared.I'm about to leave this world,but I've accomplished nothing.
The man I love the most doesn't love me.His family doesn't accept me.Even the world will soon forget me.
Mark is a very responsible person.He won't abandon the child and marry another woman!
My fingers were all knotted together.I was too ashamed to look up at his expression.
But halfway through untying them,I accidentally saw Mark's expression.
He looked like he was watching a ridiculous comedy.
Those damn indifferent eyes again!
Suddenly,a voice came from the side hall,full of embarrassment:"Brother,it's time for us to go."
All the blood in my body seemed to freeze.
It was Mark's several cousins.They had heard the whole thing in the side hall.
Mark pushed me away and stood up to straighten himself out.
"I'll go back to the ancestral house for the family dinner today.Later,you can apologize to mom and dad on your own."
He picked up the coat that was draped over the back of the sofa and his eyes swept over the exposed part of my shoulder.
He looked at me as if I was a slut who had failed to flatter him.
"Laura,sometimes I really can't figure out what you're thinking."
Everything was so absurd that I wanted to laugh.
I even forgot when they left.
But Mark's indifferent eyes kept lingering in my mind.
Except when he wanted me,it was actually very difficult for me to get close to him.
What wife,what husband.
I was just a plaything that he could order around.
Looking at myself in the mirror,I forced a smile that was uglier than a cry.
It turns out that when a person gives up their dignity,they look so ugly.[This is a paid node]
Alex was also there.There was almost no suspense that he would make a big deal out of this at the family dinner.
Sure enough,in the evening,Mark's mother called me.
"Miss Laura,would you like to have tea with me?"
Mark's parents liked to wrap their harsh words in soft language.Their questions and rhetorical sentences often showed their dissatisfaction.
I forced myself to cheer up and dressed up.
But before going out,when I looked at myself in the mirror,I still wasn't satisfied with how I looked.
In the teahouse.
"Even if your husband isn't at home,you should still take care of your appearance."
Mark's mother seemed to be joking,but there was contempt in her eyes.
Then she got straight to the point:"Xiaotao,we only have Mark as our child.After three years,he still doesn't want to have a child with you,and we can't have a grandson."
"So,I want to ask you to divorce him."
Divorce.
This word was just like cancer.I thought it was so far away from me.
But when I realized it,I had already come into close contact with it.
It was normal.After getting married,Mark was still lukewarm towards me.
I was an outsider in the first place,and without my husband's support,Mark's parents'dislike for me became even more obvious.
"Does Mark agree?"
I heard myself asking.
Mark's mother smiled.This time,it was a sincere smile.
"Ah Yao has his own mind.If he didn't mention it,why would I talk to you about it?"
That's right.Mark didn't like his parents interfering too much,and his mother was also afraid of his authority.
"I understand."
Mark's mother was very satisfied with my understanding and left gracefully,leaving a table of tea snacks.
I calmly took out the medicine box and swallowed the pills with tea.
But my trembling hands made the colorful pills spill all over the floor.
Mark didn't like children.
In the five years of our marriage,among our friends who got married in the same year,their children were already running around,and some even had a second child.
But Mark would always carefully tear open the condom packaging.If I played a little trick and threw away all the condoms at home.
He would just take a cold shower.
Occasionally,when things got intense,he would also repeatedly remind me to take birth control pills.
He liked things clean and quiet,and children were noisy.
On the fifth day,I couldn't fall asleep all day,and Mark never came back home.
Sitting at home,I often felt depressed,so I just wandered outside all day.
Suddenly,the cry of a little child attracted my attention.
The little girl was crying so hard that her face turned red,and she looked around helplessly.
I was worried that she would be taken away by bad people,and I was also worried that she would run onto the road,so I immediately went up to her.
She had gotten separated from her parents and couldn't speak clearly.She just kept crying for her daddy.
I wanted to take her into a warm room,but she cried even more hysterically.
Her little face was covered with snot and tears,and my handkerchief wasn't enough at all.
"Stand here properly,okay?Don't walk onto the road."
I looked back every few steps as I prepared to buy a pack of tissues and some hot drinks at the nearby convenience store.
She might get dehydrated if she kept crying like this.
I almost ran out of the store.
But when I reached the corner,I stopped in my tracks.
