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I hadn't had any contact with him for a long time.
I didn't even pay attention to whether he was still driving behind me later.
Not everyone is willing to immerse themselves in the past.
He might be,but I wasn't.
I wanted to look forward.
He sent me a photo.
It was a photo of Leo and me accompanying Aunt Leo while shopping.
"Is this your new boyfriend?"
I thought about it and didn't reply.
A few minutes later,Ryan called.
"Someone is chasing you?"
"Sort of."
"Yoyo,I've made it clear with Ava.Can't you really give me another chance?"
"You know my answer.Why do you have to ask again?"
"I don't understand.Before Ava came back,I really loved you wholeheartedly.Why?Why did you suddenly stop loving me and give up on me?I can't figure it out."
"It wasn't sudden.I just suddenly realized my own heart after Ava came back.It's that I didn't love you enough.Ryan,let's part on good terms.Don't contact me again unless it's something important,and don't follow me anymore."
"You knew?"
"Yeah,I saw it."
"I didn't dare to call out to you.When I was behind you,I felt that you weren't too far away from me.Yoyo,I really can't let go."
I thought for a while and took down my phone.
I found Zachary's photo and sent it to Ryan.
There was no sound from Ryan's side.
We were both silent.
Then I heard Ryan's uncontrollable sobbing.
"I understand.I brought this upon myself.Yoyo,I want to ask you one last question."
"Go ahead."
"Over these past few years,did you ever truly love me,love someone named Ryan?"
I didn't say anything.
"I see.Yoyo,in the future...I won't bother you anymore."
"Okay.Then goodbye."
How could I not have loved him?
Every time I tried to forget the past and focus on loving someone wholeheartedly,I would always see Ava's shadow at home.
Maybe it was the gardenias that appeared from time to time at home.
Maybe it was that Ryan would be lost in thought whenever he saw something about gardenias on TV.
Maybe it was that Ryan never had the heart to take out the intimate photo in the interlayer of his wallet.
Or maybe it was that every time my mother suggested that our two families have a meal together,Ryan would make excuses and avoid it.
I didn't let Ryan live in Zachary's shadow.
But I was constantly living in Ava's shadow.
Later,I didn't want to think about it anymore.
Later,Jack also apologized to me,saying that he had misunderstood me before.
I didn't reply.
In my eyes,he was an unimportant person.
