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I looked inside through the small window on the ward door.Ava,Jack,and several other of their childhood friends were all there.
They were all standing behind the doctor.
Ryan had thick bandages wrapped around his head,forehead,and chin,and his left leg was propped up on a stand.
He really seemed to be seriously injured.
The doctor was probably changing his dressing.
It would be a lie to say that I wasn't worried.After all,we had been together for three years.
If there hadn't been Ava.
If Ryan had been willing.
I thought that I might have been with Ryan for a lifetime.
Unfortunately,there were no ifs.
What I wanted was wholehearted love.
I originally didn't plan to go in,but Ryan noticed me.
He pointed at the door with his finger.
Everyone turned around and looked at me.
I pushed the door open and nodded to everyone as a greeting.
"Are you feeling better?"
Ryan probably had a sore chin and couldn't talk much,so he just nodded and kept staring at me.
Ava snorted angrily and ran out of the ward.
Jack chased after her.
The others looked at Ryan's indifferent expression and exchanged glances with each other,all feeling awkward and laughing nervously,saying they would go out and take a look.
After the doctor finished changing the dressing,he gave some instructions.
Scarring was inevitable,and he told Ryan to cooperate well with the treatment to recover as soon as possible.
Throwing a tantrum and not eating would only make the scars worse.
After the doctor left,the ward suddenly became quiet.
I sat down by the bedside.
Ryan tried to hold my hand.
I directly pulled my hand back and ignored Ryan's dejected expression.
"I regret it,Yoyo."His voice was low.
When I was angry in the past,he would always hug and coax me in this voice.
"I thought that I had always loved Ava in my heart,but after getting back together with her,I realized that the feelings I had for her were just old obsessions."
"I couldn't let go of the fact that she abandoned me back then.It was a feeling of resentment,not love."
"After getting back together,I didn't want to hold her hand or kiss her."
"When she took the initiative,all I could think of was you."
"At first,I thought it was just a habit.We were together for three years,and I might have just gotten used to you."
"But later I realized it wasn't.Your little finger is soft,and every time I held your hand,I liked to rub it.Ava's isn't like that,and later I resisted having any intimate contact with her."
"She changed her perfume to the rose scent that you like,but I know that she's not you."
"I wanted to find you,but I was too afraid.You want someone who is wholeheartedly devoted to you,and I didn't do that."
"I didn't have a relationship with Ava,Yoyo.Can you give me another chance?These days,I've really missed you."
Looking into Ryan's eyes,I knew that he was serious.
He really did regret it.
"Ryan,there's no such good thing in the world.No one will always be waiting for you in the same place."
"I've always known that you were with me because I look a bit like Ava,right?"
Before,I wasn't sure about this.After all,there was a reason why Ava was praised as the school belle in school.
She was really beautiful.
Later,when I saw the photos of their gathering,I couldn't tell exactly where we were alike,but our expressions were really similar,especially our profiles.
"Ryan,I've already moved on,and I won't come back."
I looked at Ryan's face covered in bandages again and was dazed for a moment.
Ryan was in so much pain.
I didn't dare to think about what suffering Zachary endured when he was discovered by those people,and I didn't even dare to look at the case files.
In the future,I would have one less thing to pin my hopes on.
After all,in order to protect the people who were still alive,the traces of Zachary's existence in this world were becoming weaker and weaker.
