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"I broke up with Ryan,Mom.I want to take a nap.I won't have lunch,so don't wake me up."
When I woke up,it was already two o'clock in the afternoon.I picked up my small combination box and was about to go out.
When my mother saw the small combination box,her face changed slightly.
She knew where I was going.
She asked if I wanted to eat something before going,her tone full of caution.
I shook my head and went out alone.
It was so cold in winter.The whole cemetery was covered in white.The cemetery staff probably thought that no one would come in the cold winter,so they didn't even clean the steps.
When I stepped on them,there was a snow pit each time.
I went up a flight of steps and looked down.My footprints were winding and twisting.
There was only one footprint on each step.
Even the footprints were lonely,I thought.
I walked up to a tombstone,took off my gloves,and brushed away the snow around it.
I took out the photo from the combination box.
Then I sat on the ground and started chattering.
"Zachary,I haven't come to see you for a long time.Do you blame me?"
Looking at the empty tombstone,my nose tingled,and tears couldn't stop falling.
"I'm not crying.It's just the cold.I wouldn't cry because of you."
"How are you doing over there?You're a hero,so the King of Hell surely won't want you.Instead,he must have sent you to heaven,right?"
"Don't wait for me anymore.Whether you're reincarnated or find another girlfriend in heaven,it's okay."
"Anyway,I can't go to accompany you.I have to take care of my mom and provide for her in her old age."
"Don't worry about Uncle and Aunt.They are well protected abroad.When I was on a business trip,I secretly went to see them,but I didn't dare to talk to them,for fear of being discovered by those people."
"These past few years,I met someone named Ryan.He looks so much like you.I know it's not you,but in my heart,I wish it were you."
"I've studied biology,and I know that it must be that your gene sequences are similar."
"Uncle and Aunt only have you as their son.They love you the most and only love you.I do too."
"But I miss you so much.Every night,looking at a face that resembles yours,I feel content."
"Are you jealous?You haven't come to my dreams for the past two years.The breakup I mentioned before was just out of anger.I regret it.Can you just pretend I never said it?"
"His ex-girlfriend is back,and I suddenly woke up.He's not you.You would never have an ex-girlfriend.I'm your only one."
"Come to my dreams tonight,okay?I want hugs,kisses,and to be lifted up high."
"Don't think I'm old.I'm 25 years old,and you're still 20.You're the most handsome anti-drug policeman in the world and the most handsome boyfriend."
"I won't be able to come and see you often in the future.Once a year,okay?My mom worries about me.Just because those bad guys don't know about my existence now doesn't mean they won't in the future.My mom is worried about my safety,and I know you are too."
"When I find my own happiness in the future,I'll come and tell you."
Seeing the pine and cypress trees in the distance swaying in the wind,I couldn't help but shiver.It was so cold.
"I'll leave my scarf for you.This place is too cold."
I took off my scarf and wrapped it around the tombstone,then put the photo away.
"I'm leaving.You must promise my invitation for a date,okay?"
