Chapter 103
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I didn't tell Dan about it and I told Boaz that it was his.
We stayed like that and slowly the guilt of cheating on him faded away as I watched him love Josiah from the time he was still in my stomach until when he was born.
When he was a few months old word got out that I was cheating on Boaz not long ago and it got into his head so much that he ended up asking for a paternity test.
I tried to reason with him and despite my effort he still went ahead and got it.
He found out that the child wasn't his and he did everything he could to make me stay away from the children because he had the privilege to.
I lost everything because of just one mistake that left me with a certficate and if it wasn't because of Josiah I probably would still be with Boaz and my bank account would be higher than how it looks at the moment.
When he divorced me I tried negotiating so that we could atleast share half of what he has but a prenup was signed meaning that I had no say in what comes to me or not.
Long story short he remarried when Josiah was four toRizik making my whole world shatter.
I mean I had lost feelings for him long long ago but I did not expect him to remarry again so soon.
They were happy.
Which angered me even more because we were never that happy in our marriage but I got over it with time.
When Jaxon and Josiah grew up they started looking for me and I saw that as an opportunity to make myself great again but everytime I looked at Josiah i would see his father who was the first cause of my misery and with time I started hating him.
He looked too much like his father.
I know it is a shitty thing to do as a mother but when your past keeps hunting and mocking you. You can only take so much.
I watched him grow from when he was twelve until he was eighteen and each year he would try to do anything and everything to make me happy which yes would make me happy but it only lasted so long.
Jaxon on the other hand was my golden boy my golden trophy because he was the reason his father still gave me money to sort myself out even though Josiah was the reason too I refused to aknowledge it.
He was and still is the reason for my misery.
So he stopped trying after I saw how broken he was because of how I was refusing to show him any motherly affection.
Jaxon hated me for it and Boaz cut me off completely but despite all that despite everyone else accusing me of being a monster I never saw it.
I never felt it and most of all I never felt any kind of bad for treating Josiah how I treated him.
I knew that I probably made him suicidal at some point because of my hate words towards him and with time he stopped too.
He stopped trying he stopped seeing me everything stopped and I was mad for that.
I was furious because like before I was left alone again.
Then Noelle came she was such a naive girl.
She tried bringing us together and I befriended her.
Fend off her and her father until they went bankrupt.
According to Noelle I was just an angry and stuck in the past woman whose emotions and motive could be changed with a few visits to a psychologist and talks with family.
She convinced Josiah too and I brought her closer to myself than ever.
She told me everything from how man bank accounts she had to the password of each one of them.
To her I was worth that much trust.
So when I got what I wanted from her I made sure to do the same with her father.
I was the mother she so longed to have and I made sure I filled that position with interest.
Her father was the same but a little bit hard to crack so I used other methods which was mistresses.
I sucked them dry with each penny and whether Noelle knows this or not I got no idea.
When I saw that they were dry I played my part. I offered her a large sum of money to disappear and go but at that time she pregnant which I had no idea about.
When she saw the amount of money I was flashing her she took it without hesitation and at that time I knew that I had hit the jackpot.
Josiah did not deserve to be happy as long as misery still ran within me and I was making sure of that.
I told her to get rid of the baby but with negociation we agreed that she would give birth and throw the baby away." She said with a breath while looking at me.
My hands were shaking into fists as she kept talking.
How much hatred did this woman actually carry to the point of almost killing an innocent child and hating someone who was not given a choice where to be conceived or not.
Josiah really went through it.
"She agreed and when she told me that she was sure the baby was going to die she told me to entirely fake her death and at that time I had enough money to do that and help her disappear forever.
We did that and it was everywhere.
