Chapter 65
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"Wha-wait.. SAY WHAT!" Carly unbelievably says, a bit taken back from the story that i told her, my past.
It actually pained me to remember it all over again.
Every little detail i remembered haunted me, atleast when i got back my memories from that Dark Witch being extracted away from me like i'm some jinjuriki.
Okay.
I need to stop watching anime, seriously humans.
"So you knew the Alpha King even before he haunted you down and chased you like crazy? Well you did both got your memories taken away from you but in different ways." Carly tries to think.
"Actually." I exhaled, letting a bit of guilt drop. "I didn't recognize him as my mate before, i haven't shifted at that time. But i realized that he knew i was his mate."
"How?"
"Like.. how he looked at me that time. I didn't even notice because i was too occupied from helping that boy. But he was there, we met."
Yes, it must've been the worst time to meet with him like that, but realizing now that things happened, eventually i regretted some things. Like how i was too childish and immature to the point i risked hundreds of lives just for a single person.
It really pained me after that incident, broke me into pieces not even a single soul can help me glue back the pieces.
Maybe that's why i changed so much.
I'm hurt, how can i not?
She frowns. "I-I don't really know what to say." She hugs me. "But i realized now that you were locking yourself up because you had to go through that hell. I understand that you wanna run away..But you can't. As time goes on, people will be more involved while you're running while the enemy is chasing you. Why can't you just face it? I'm here, we are."
I smiled, but inside i felt that she still didn't understand me.
Experiencing a lot of things made me stronger and more denser to things, but i do admit that i am still the sensitive person i am if you poke my wounds open.
"I don't know." Slowly, tears started to fall. "I don't know. I don't know. Before the only reason why i lived on after that incident was because i hated myself so much that i even thought dying was an easier way to peace. But i can never live in peace because of the things i've done. And now, it started to change."
She looked at me in awe, as if she expected the next words that's gonna come right out of my mouth.
"At first, i thought that if i ever meet up with my mate, i would reject him immediately and leave. But i didn't think he would be the strongest alpha in our continent. In stories told by others, he was known as a notorious leader in every single corner in our society, but when i met him. When i met him, i ran away. Yes, but it wasn't because i was scared at him, it was just that when i felt his presence a little nearer to mine, my heart started beating fast." I closed my eyes, smiling at those memories.
"I couldn't breathe and i felt my heart tighten, but strange that i felt good. And scared that my mate will leave me soon after he discovers what i did in the past, that he would grow tired of me. I never really got the chance of telling that to him. But at the time that i was always beside him, i couldn't feel any happier." I finally says and wiped my tears.
All of it was true.
Right now i really missed him so much, that crying was the only answer since i was so full of enduring my desire for him. But i thought that i shouldn't be selfish. I had to let him go, i can't let him near me, see me or even feel me. Even if i had to go through another hundred nights crying in sorrow, i would endure all of that so he wouldn't need to be hurt in the end.
"Why didn't you tell him how you really feel? Is it because of Charles?" She asks.
"..."
"Christal." She tries to get my attention, but i couldn't say anything.
Was it true?
Is it really because i cannot let go of the past that i couldn't move forward to the future? I already know that nothing will happen if i cling too much in the past, but i can't help it. It's like i'm trying to take away something i've done for many years.
It'll take time to change that, i haven't even started yet.
"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to." She smiles at me. "But choose yourself, what makes you happy. Whatever happened in the past is past already, you gotta let go."
Then again, i thought she didn't understand me.
I sat there speechless, my mood turning upside down and everything seemed to irritate me, i told her that i won't move an inch from my room and just lock myself another day, she didn't stop me knowing that my mood changed suddenly.
I sighed, i know i'm being too over dramatic, but after going through hell, i don't think i would be able to trust anyone anymore.
I sat again on my couch and started watching Tv.
Should i watch anime again? Hmm but i already watched naruto and it took me 2 years to finish the whole series, damn that took my lifespan.
Well Kakashi was hot.
Ok. it's weird that i fangirled on something non-existent.
Then should i just watch Vampire Diaries? I mean Carly has been making me to watch it a couple of times but to only get rejected because i didn't really like how they described vampires falling inlove with humans, that's just bullshit ya know.
'You fell inlove with a human before.' Gina laughs.
[Oh shut up! Since when did you start talking?]
I grumpily slouched myself on the couch and started to think of what to watch again, my mind going through numerous memories to find what type of movie would i watch.
horror movies! It thought, quickly choosing Annabelle. I'm not really scared but i just wanted to watch something i haven't seen before.
In the middle of the movie, i suddenly got eccentric that i would shout many useless things in the air even though i knew that it was all scripted.
"LOOK OVER THERE BITCH! THERE's A WOMAN BEHIND YOU!"
"Shit that's some creepy as doll they took in."
"WHY ARE YOU LOOKING FOR IT?! IF I WERE YOU I WOULD'VE RUN STRAIGHT AWAY FROM THAT HOUSE."
"Come on! Just burn the doll! Stupid woman."
"Shit shit! Get the baby away from the doll!"
After a few hours, my mind slowly felt tired and i desired to sleep, well i got pretty tired after all those energy i wasted shouting at a television. closing all the lights before going to my bed. I lay there as i felt my eyelid slowly close.
So sleepy.
~ D R E A M ~
{"Do you know what you have done?!"} A girl with a group of companions dressed in White appeared into my vision.
Where am i?
I looked down and i don't even see my lower body, it's as if my eyeballs were floating in mid air. Wait? What. As i tried to asses the situation, i was more than surprised when i saw Syrena in the scene. She was holding back the beggar looking witch- oh shit that witch was the one who made the contract with me!
I glared at her.
{"I'm just trying to bring back two souls! Which you all killed!"} The Dark Witch scowled at the White Witches, so i assumed because they wear white cloaks and literally dress in White.
Even Syrena was wearing White? I don't get it. Why was she wearing White? Something's not right.
The White Witch eye's suddenly glowed and the Dark Witch was blown away by the force of magic, a rope of stem from the ground wrapping around her neck, the Dark Witch couldn't surpass the power. Must be because it came from earth itself.
I observed further.
But, what exactly is happening to me right now? Is this the past? It must be. Seeing that Syrena was once White.
{"You've done further damage! We can no longer sit back and watch."}
{"Really now? What can your kindness do to this evil world ?! We live in this unfair world WHITE WITCHES HAS NO PLACE FOR THE CHILDREN OF THE GODS! All of them is corrupted and you all know that and you're telling me you can't just sit back and relax?! I am not the only evil here."} The Dark Witch grins. {"Everything is evil, except for the place you live in White bitches."}
Well shit, that was deep.
{"Stop it please, she didn't mean to do this! It was my fault!"} Syrena cuts it, shielding the Dark Witch from speaking any further.
Well she really is kind huh.
{"I know you love your sister."} The White Witch comes near her. {"But letting her do further is no kindness. She's affecting the balance of this world."}
{"Nonsense! There was never a balance in the first place!"} The Dark Witch hisses.
{"SILENCE!"}
