Chapter 229
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Memories were magical, more vivid than any cameras or recordings. Unlike any devices, we couldn’t delete the things we wanted to forget.
Instead, memories became like a broken recorder that kept playing a scene before our eyes over and over again, retrieving all the emotions we’ve worked hard to push into the deepest depths of our hearts.
And the simplest thing as hearing a word connected to the past was the trigger.
My breathing hitched as I fell into a daze. Despite where I was, it felt like I was in a different dimension. All I saw and fell into was connected to three years ago.
I was once again standing on the stage at the kingdom, wet palms and an aching heart, as I watched on the screen Kylian carrying Flora away from danger, his evident worry and panic reflecting in his eyes and actions.
“I have no regrets,” he said in all seriousness as he held Flora tighter and protectively by his side, pulling her towards the door as Luna Lauren and her men let them.
He had no regrets… No one could imagine how that phrase straight from his lips haunted me several times in dreams and memories.
What’s more heartbreaking was the fact that for me to be reminded of him, I didn’t even need words because he left a reminder in me that I couldn’t live without – Aaden.
He’s only three years old, but his eyes resembled him so much that sometimes I felt like I was looking into his eyes.
My heart clenched, and I fisted my hands, hiding them beneath the table, away from Sapphire’s eyes.
They said fated mates’ bonds were unbreakable, but that iron rule was seemingly not applicable to me.
Because even with Albert by my side, bringing me joy and butterflies, I still couldn’t completely forget Kylian… Not three years ago, not now.
I hated him to death, but I couldn’t help but think of him.
I tried harder each day not to think of the man who betrayed me countless times and looked down on me for being an omega, but he still managed to appear in my life in unexpected ways, like now.
Thinking I’m free from ever seeing him again, only to prove it wrong as he still manages to get connected at Wakeland.
“Princess!”
I blinked a couple of times and jolted from Sapphire’s shout, which was a tone I heard from her for the first time.
When she saw me back in reality, she gave me a subtle bow. “I’m sorry, Princess, but you seemed to doze off so…”
Nonchalantly, I nodded and ordered, “Cautiously checked the status of Dark Moon Pack’s relationship with Mr. K.”
“I’ll try my best, Princess.” Instead of leaving, she observed me for a while before adding, “Do you need me to call a doctor for you? You look pale.”
I immediately shook my head. “No, I’m fine.”
Tapping my desk, I added, “Just leave all the files with the information you gathered here, and you can leave.”
I sighed. “I wanted to rest.”
“Then, I’ll leave first.” With that, she organized the folders on my desk, bowed at me, and turned to leave.
But before she could walk out of the door, I called her out again upon remembering something. “And do a background check on the Rogue’s king, Drake.”
Looking at her intently, I meaningfully added, “I wanted all the information the kingdom’s security department can’t access.”
Understanding what I meant, a glint of determination flashed in her eyes. She smiled and knowingly replied, “That’s my specialty. Give me ten days of leave, Princess. I’ll need to blend it with those groups.”
I nodded. “Go ahead, and be careful.”
As soon as I heard the door closing, I leaned back on my chair and massaged the bridge of my nose, trying to relieve the heaviness in my heart.
“You’re sad because of Kylian again!” Trisha scolded me for the nth time, feeling completely hopeless by my repetitive and inevitable reactions.
“Don’t…” I warned. “We’ve talked about this a hundred times, and I’ll say it again, it’s out of my control!”
“Then don’t forget this fact and use your anger as fuel to forget that bastard.” She cursed and huffed. “Let me remind you again, Flora is still in the Dark Moon Pack living a happy life! That asshole has already forgotten about you, Della.”
“You and him? It’s completely and utterly ended. You should let go of the past. It’s been three years already. Move on and focus on your past instead,” she emphasizes.
“What do you think I’m doing?” I argued.
She then flashed memories of Albert and Aaden into me. “Just focus on them and your delightful future with them. If you continue being like this, it will only hurt Aaden and Albert—the two men who are worth all your love and care.”
I slammed my hand on the armrest and agitatedly stood up, pacing around in distress. “I’ve tried so hard to forget all of it!”
Throwing my hands in the air, I cried helplessly, “I’ve tried my best. You, of all people, should know about it!”
A few drops of tears then started dripping from the corner of my eyes as the frustration, pain, and rage in me started becoming too overwhelming for me to control.
Then, Trisha’s raging tone suddenly turned gentle which was far more scary than earlier.
“Don’t you see it? Don’t you feel it? Albert changed,” she said, which made my heart tremble, almost making it stop beating.
Sighing in pain, she continued, “He’s no longer that gentle man he used to be… and you’re the one responsible for all of that.”
I was frozen, speechless, making my arms fall to my side as more tears streamed from my eyes. My heart clenched, and I felt my nerves trembling in uncertainty and guilt.
Because everything she said was a slap in the face. A slap of truth.
Flashes of memories of me with Albert in bed… countless nights of him trying to take the initiative to me intimate with me but always failed because I still couldn’t be ready.
It’s been three years, and I still couldn’t completely have sex with him. I’d always subconsciously make something up that would stop it just before we reached the last step.
“Oh goddess,” I whispered as I felt my legs weakening, making it feel like jelly that I had no choice but to stumbled on the couch.
Although Albert didn’t show how much he changed to me or to Aaden, Trisha was right. His attitude toward the others drastically changed. Gone was the gentle and kind man I first knew him to be, and he was changed into a cold and harsh ruler.
He wouldn’t allow the omegas to mention anything about the Dark Moon Pack or they’ll be severely punished like what happened to Lily.
And all that was because I couldn’t forget Kylian, and he could feel it. It made him insecure and sensitive, which I couldn’t blame him for.
Taking a deep breath, I calmed myself and regained my composure before I stood up and replied to Trisha, “I’ll talk to Albert.”
With that, I opened and walked out of my office with one thought in mind. “Trish is right. This really couldn’t go on like this.”
