Chapter 54
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What the hell did I do?
She was right.
She was telling the truth.
And I didn't believe her.
She was crying. She begged and pled for me to believe her but I didn't. All along, I thought that she broke my heart with her lies when I was the one who broke hers with my cruelty. I should have believed her, but instead, I looked at the pictures that my mother had and doubted her.
And now she's gone because I've hurt her and I kicked her out of my house.
She was crying and begging me to believe her and I didn't.
I sighed.
I still remember the tears in her eyes as she pled with me and I blocked her out. I didn't trust her enough to believe her and now it's coming back to haunt me.
I placed my head in my hand and started to cry.
I lost her.
I lost the only girl I've ever truly loved or loved for that matter.
And the worst thing about it is that she loved me too. I was too blind to see that and now she's gone and I have no idea where she is.
Even if I did, I don't think she'd take me back. Not after what I did.
When she just came she said she was tired of persons hurting her and I ended up doing the same to her.
If only I could turn back time.
If I had only made the right choices.
I reached over for the whisky bottle then I pulled the cap and brought it to my lips. I let the bitter taste go down my throat then took a second sip, then another.
Drinking always seemed to work for others so maybe now it's time for it to work for me. For it to help take the pain away from my chest. The pain that makes me feel empty and alone.
I am empty alone.
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I still haven't got over my broken heart or the fact that I broke someone's heart. I'm still thinking about her. No matter what I try to do to get her out of my head. It doesn't work. I keep thinking about the times we spent together. The time by the pool yard, in front of the fireplace and many more. The memories just won't leave.
Alliyah and Santiago are here staying with me. My parents brought Henrique a few days earlier saying they needed 'Alone time' and when they saw Alliyah they were shocked. Of course, my mother burst out in fits and argue but Santiago calmed her down.
I don't know how he did but he managed to get her to control herself.
Santiago and I become friends. We talk about business, cars and sports. He is a great guy and he's going to be a great father to Henrique. After spending time with the couple, I realized that Alliyah was truly sorry for her mistakes, so why hold it against her?
She also deserves to have her child around her. I wouldn't want him hating her because of the mistakes she's made and although I've agreed for them to get custody of him, I still wanted them to make him visit me regularly. I want to have a relationship with my younger brother.
"Ms. Carter, dinner is ready." I shook my head and lift it to Cynthia at my office door.
"Thanks, I'll be there in a minute."
Cynthia isn't as mean towards Alliyah as she was to Kalliyah when she arrived. She was on the edge a little but I guess just like me, she forgave Alliyah. I saw them talking and laughing, something she never did with Kalliyah.
Kalliyah.
She comes in my mind at least ten times a day.
It's hard to forget someone you love.
I love her and I pushed her away. If only I had a little more trust in her, then she'd be in my arms. She'd be with me. I'd be able to look in her grey eyes and smile at her. I'd kiss her and make her feel special just like she is. I'd tell her how much I love her and how much I care.
But I can't do any of those things because she's not here and I don't have the guts to go and hunt her down.
I sighed and stood up from my desk. I closed down my MacBook.
I walked to the dining area to see Santiago and Alliyah was already there. They were holding hands and smiling at each other.
That's sweet.
There is no doubt that they love each other.
I smiled and cleared my throat to get their attention.
Alliyah looked up and saw me. Her cheeks got pink with embarrassment as if they were caught doing something nasty. She placed her head on Santiago's shoulder.
He laughed at her. He looks up at me. "Lo Siento." He had a guilty look on his face but I need not question what type of conversation they were having at my dinner table.
I smiled and took my seat at my usual spot.
After a couple of minutes of awkward silence, I decide to speak up. "Did Henrique give any trouble today?"
I realized at the mention of her son's name she jolts. That made me smile internally. "No, he didn't. In fact, he was playing with Cloudy, Grey and their pups. It was great. I even put some pictures on Instagram with them playing. It's adorable. The pictures got lots of likes. He's asleep now though."
Alliyah loved social-media. Since she's an ex-model she knew almost all the social media platforms and tries to keep a ready update with them.
"That's good. What did you two do?"
I saw the couples face got red. I smirk, they were doing the nasties in my house. I didn't mind though. They're a couple, of course, I expect them to be intimate.
