Chapter 94
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"Are you sure you're okay with this?"
Damon has been asking me that question for three hours straight already. He couldn't believe that I agreed on God Columbus' decision. Elaine and I are on the same page, but just like Damon, Gab doesn't like the idea of making the Chosens the new strength of Spheria.
It's not like they're forcing us really. We have to help. God Hlaford was abducted and if that's not an enough reason to get us moving then I don't know what.
"Can you stop asking me that question already? You know the answer." I rolled my eyes and continue listing the Chosens under me and Damon.
Yeah, apparently, we're one of those so-called guides that will lead them. I'll make sure to teach them what God Diante taught us.
"But they know nothing about fighting. We'll only put them in danger."
"That's why we're here to teach them!"
"It's like teaching them to die."
"It depends on how you will teach them."
I slammed the book shut and look at him. He's wearing a very tiring mad face. I can't help, but sighed deeply. This is not what I'm expecting him to react.
"You're being unfair," I mumbled. His brows furrowed. He looks really confused. This is what I'm talking about. He doesn't know what he's doing.
"I don't understand," he said.
"You didn't care about humans, but you're so protective of Chosens. How can be you so unfair, huh? You didn't even bother hiding it. You're so open about being—"
"No! That's not true."
"What do you know about the truth? You know what? Josh is better. He's way more fair than you. You look on race and that's what I hate about you."
I couldn't shut my mouth. All the pain I have inside just break free. I'm not wrong though. He's unfair and that's the truth.
Damon clenched his jaw. He didn't like what I said. I looked away and made myself busy by writing the Chosens' names. This is not the night I imagined with him.
He pushed me to my limits.
"Oh, really? You like him better than me. Do you even know that there's a huge possibility that that guy you're so in love with killed Diante!" he slurred. My eyes widened. W—What?
"Fiscio told me that a wolf killed Diante. He had claw marks. Deep claw marks. Who do you think is the wolf who can get in here easily?" he scoffed. I froze in place. My mind became blank. I tried to open my mouth and speak, but no voice came out.
T—That's not true.
"You're lying," I said in a flat voice. My body flinched when he suddenly slammed the table.
"DO YOU HATE ME THAT MUCH?"
His screamed echoed in my ears. I squeezed my eyes shut in so much horror. He's yelling at me. This is something he doesn't do. Why is he being like this?
"S—Stop!"
"NO! YOU STOP. Do you know how much hurt I am while seeing the two of you get close back there?" he asked. There's a hint of pain in his voice. Something I've never heard from him before. It sounded so depressing like he's been keeping it inside for such a long time.
"You've been fooled by his kind actions, Golden. He's no good. It isn't true that he joined us to help us find Aluncina. He hid Aluncina."
That's the last he said before walking out of the room leaving me dumbfounded.
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I remember talking about God Columbus' decision. I don't know how we ended up fighting about Josh. It was me who inserted him in the discussion. It's my fault.
But is it true though? That Josh killed Diante.
I don't think I will be able to take that if it's true. God Diante is so kind and even a close friend like him can't be forgiven. I want to know if Damon is telling the truth. That's why I'm here in front of the Sayana River.
I want to ask her myself.
"What brings you here?" Fiscio asked. She's in her normal form. I brought her my gift. It's nothing special, but I'm hoping that it will be enough for her to give me an answer.
"A gift? You're here for a question. I guess it's about your parsen, Damon." Her voice sounded so certain. It's like as if she's expecting me to come here and ask her that question.
"You don't believe him, do you?" she slurred. My eyes grew big. That's not what I meant.
"I—I'm just trying—" She cut me off.
"To see if he's telling the truth. That means you don't trust him. You don't trust your parsen. You don't trust Damon." My brows furrowed. But that's not what I meant. I never said that I don't trust him. Why does she always translate my actions in a bad way?
"The moment you come here to verify his words means you do not trust him," she scoffed. I scowled at her.
"I never said I don't!"
"You don't have to say it stupid girl. You act it. Crimes are acted and so are painful lies. You don't trust him and you have you accept it and forgive yourself!"
Fiscio's veins are almost popping out of her skin. She's getting so worked up. There's mixed disappoinment and angriness in her voice.
"You have no idea how faithful Damon is you and yet you have the audacity to compare him to a lowly wold who killed Diante." Her voice is full of disgust. This is not what I'm expecting to hear from her. She's roasting me so bad. "If I only knew you were this incompetent, I wouldn't have given you a chance to do your responsibility as a prophecy's child." She glared at me.
I looked at her with my eyes all big and thin.
"The decision was never in your hands anyway. Who do you think you are to give such meaningless decisions?" I replied.
I don't where I got the courage to answer back, but it made her eyes so big. She's not expecting me answer back. I don't believe that all the souls of the dead Gods and Goddesses is in her.
She doesn't act like one.
"How will I believe everything you say when the seashell is technically not from you?" I scoffed. Her eyes widened. It froze her in an instant. I knew she can never take what I just said. "You think I wouldn't know? That clues are from the Vortans who wants to give clues to you."
"You're pathetic."
Her words struck me directly. It was full of loathing and hatred. She sounded so disappointed and upset. It's like she never expected me to come to a point where I will attack her.
"You believed him so easily. Now, I understand why Damon hated a part of you. Fix that my child or you might loose him as your one and only parsen."
That's the last thing she said before kicking me out of her shell.
I remained standing in front of Sayana River. This is confusing me. I don't who will I believe. I've seen Josh's kindness. It was genuine. He was true. But Damon and Fiscio are saying otherwise.
Damon will never lie to me, but here I am doubting his words. This is exactly what Fiscio told me before. That I have to trust my parsen better. I'm so confused.
What's bothering me the most is the thought that I'm the one who thinks he's a good guy. Does that mean I've been fooled?
I released a deep sigh and look at the night sky. The starts are twinkling so peacefully. Is God Diante one of then now?
"Please, help me Diante. I'm so confused right now."
