Chapter 53
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I was shocked at his confession and I didn't know what to do so I pulled back his lips on mine and continued kissing him.
I looked at Seth sleeping body and smiled. He loved me. He really loved me.
This was the first time I've ever had someone confess their love for me and it was the first time I've ever felt the same way for a person. I just didn't have the guts to say it. Something was holding me back and I had no clue what it was.
Am I afraid to accept love?
Am I afraid to get hurt?
Yes, love means hurting.
Deep down I know Seth wouldn't hurt me. He hasn't hurt me or did anything remotely close to hurting me. It was always the other way around. Why couldn't I tell him that I loved him?
Maybe because you don't.
But I do. I felt deep in my bones. In my heart. It was love for him then had me coming at his door step tonight. Wasn't it?
What other reason could there be?
I slowly pushed myself off the bed, careful not to wake him. I grabbed my dress from the ground and quickly put it on.
I looked down at his peaceful face and smile.
I hadn't eaten before I came here and now, I was starving. I tiptoed my way in the kitchen, trying to make as little noise as I can.
As I opened the fridge, I spot garlic bread. I smiled and took it out, all I need now is to heat it up. I opened the bag and took out three slices then put it back in the fridge. I looked around the kitchen and then I spot the microwave in the corner. I took out a plate from the plate tray and place the garlic slices on it and then placed it the microwave.
I couldn't help sleeping.
I am happy. Seth made me happy. Being with him made me happy.
I jumped when the microwave stopped. I laughed a little then remove the plate from it. It took a bite of the bread then moan. So good.
I took up the dish and walked out of the kitchen into the living room. I walked straight to the clear glass that was showing the beautiful night lights of New York City. I smiled when I saw my own apartment building. Too bad I didn't live on that side. Or we could use telescopes to see each other.
Oh! Stop it, Kari. When did you become so cheesy?
When you found out that Seth was in love with you.
I smiled to myself. It felt good. This feeling of being loved and to love in return.
When I finished eating the garlic bread, I stayed by the screen for a few minutes just enjoying the beautiful and peaceful view.
I moved away from the screen and start looking around the apartment. I spot a black jacket and beside it was his bag and some files all around.
I turned away from it and started heading back to the kitchen. I stopped halfway and walked up to the files. I started to fix them up. It was a little tacky. I took up a file and start reading.
'Peter McNeil' was the name of the client. As curious as a cat I continued reading. The man's story was so interesting that I found myself skipping the page and reading more. This was a case that I would have loved to work on.
"So this is the real reason you came over here." I jumped and dropped the paper when I heard Seth's voice behind me.
I turn around quickly, "It's not what it looks like...I was trying to." I quickly tried to explain myself. Imagine how I must have looked to him. I was going through his things.
"It's exactly what it looks like." He ran his hand through his hair and hissed his teeth. "I trusted you Karishma. I told you I love and yet here you are only caring about one thing, your job."
I shook my head, "No. It's not like that."
"Get out,"
I shook my head, "Seth I wasn't looking through your files." I groan and continued, "I was but not like what you think. I was just trying to..."
"I don't wanna hear it, please leave." He was looked at me with contempt. All the passion and the love that was on his face a few minutes ago was gone completely. This was a new person in front of me.
"Seth, please. It's not what it looks like. Give me a chance to explain." I walked up to where he was standing. I reached out to touch him to he fan me away.
"That's all I ever was to you right? Sex? and now you want to win the case so bad that you'd search through my files."
"No, that's not true."
"Yea. So you're telling me that I'm more than just a man you want to have sex with? What's it, Dial Seth for sex for you?"
"No, Seth, of course not. You're more than that to me." So much more than just a sex buddy.
"Leave!" he shouted causing me to flinch.
I felt a few tears falling from my eyes. I shook my head. "Let me explain, please."
"I said leave!" he shouted again. His force rough and serious. Not like the sweet Seth I was used to. "Leave before I put you out myself."
I sniffed and walked pass him. I took up my car keys from the key stack and opened the door. I looked back to him, but he wasn't looking at me. His head was turned to the screen.
"Leave." He whispered.
His whisper twisted something in me. It was my heart breaking.
I exit his apartment and closed the door behind me.
