Chapter 58: Thinking about him
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I cocked an eyebrow at her wondering if she was remembering who she was taking to right now. I have an idea of how disturbing that would be as it would probably disturb me as well.
"Anyway", She began waving her hand dismissively when I didn't respond to her. "I hope you have a good trip to London, and when you come back , I hope you let my brother explain things. I would love to see him happy for once in his life and can you imagine how beautiful your babies would be!!",
Whoa. That was a little bit too far. I just learned what Drake's personal life was after agreeing to have a strictly sexual relationship with the guy and now his sister is standing in my front lawn talking about our babies. Nope this is getting weird.
"Well, I gotta go", I spun and headed towards the Uber, wanting to exist that conversation as quickly as I could. Her laugh reached me as I opened up the door and slid in. Looking back at her, she was waving and then spun around to head back to Drake's house. The Uber driver backed out of my driveway and headed for Luis's next.
I couldn't wait to get on the fucking plane and get the hell out of here for a few days. And we going to London?! I was pumped for that. I have never been to Europe and couldn't wait to go there.
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When we arrived in London, it was raining and a bit chilly but that didn't seem to damper our spirits at all. We couldn't check into our hotels yet so went exploring through the beautiful old part of the city.
"I saw you talking to a woman this morning. Who was that?",
I snorted, shaking my head.
"We are literally just on a nine hour flight and then you bring that up", I snapped at him.
He chuckled. "What?, I was busy",
That he was. He literally sat on his phone and the laptop the entire flight, ignoring me the entire time. He also had his earbuds in and every time I went to speak, he shushed me.
"That was Drake's sister, Dakota",
He nodded, peering over at me out of the corner of his eyes. "What did she have to say?",
Should I tell him what she said?. Fuck it. I needed all the advice I could get. I stared at Drake's text message during most of the flight over here. He wanted me in join him in the bed this morning and if I hadn't learned that he is a sadist, I would have totally snuck over and crawled into bed with him.
But then I scolded myself for that. I was judging him now based off of his personality and that wasn't fair. Sure he fucked women on camera for money, but he never once made me feel that he was a cheating asshole or a sadist.
"She told me to hear Drake out when we return home", I kept my answer as short and sweet as I could. "As you should", He nudged my shoulder. "You can't stop thinking about him. Can you?",
"No, but not in the way you clearly implying. I'm just still having a hell of time wondering if it could work. Do I even want it to work?. I promised myself that I wouldn't get involved with any man so soon after Jason but here am I falling for the porn star",
"Baby girl,. You divorced Jason a year ago and let's be honest you checked out on that relationship well before then. It isn't too soon",
He might be right but that was beside the point. Now I'm having feeling for a man like Drake. My parents would flip out if they learned who I was dating.
"I think you need to talk with him. I think if you here his side of the story then things will change. I don't think it was a coincidence that Drake kept showing up everywhere we were and then this little relationship sparked. And don't tell me that you don't feel it",
He rolled his eyes at me. "It isn't a problem unless you make it a problem. You have to admit it that knowing he is a porn star turns you on. Just a little bit. I mean if I found that the guy I was screwing around with and started having feeling for was a porn star, I would be like. Okay show me some moves",
I burst out laughing, nudging him back. "You would not. You would be more of a girl than the man I always see in you",
"I mean maybe the first time but you haven't yet admitted it that you sexually affected by it",
I hated him for saying that because it was true. Some part of me was turned on by the fact that he was a porn star. The women he slept with were now the problem because now I was falling for him and didn't want to share him. And I'm not proud of it. But I have wondered since I learned this detail, what it would be like to be in a porn with Drake. He could come over to fix my plumbing then.....
"You thinking about fucking him right now, aren't you?", Luis shrieked and I felt my cheeks blush. "You dirty bitch. See?. Give the guy a break",
"Shut up, let's get some food. I'm starving", I walked much faster ahead of him and immediately ended up the conversation.
