Chapter Thirty Three
Being at home to recuperate isn't easy especially if you're not used to it, there's no more waking up so early so coming in late, the only thing to do is sleep.
Though I hate this, it has kind of helped me and Gale to fully mend our relationship, it has given me a chance to know more about him that I didn't know from the beginning.

But in all this I never felt any kind of regret or anything that makes me think otherwise of our relationship, he was my perfect man and well I could see a better future in front of us.
A happy marriage and beautiful kids, something that I never experienced during my childhood am expecting to give that to my children.
They will have love from both me and Gale.
There is also Maggie, ever since I left the hospital she has been around taking care of me and Gale, she made me feel the love of mother to her daughter and am sure she'll also love my children.
Apart from mother Pauline everyone else kept visiting me and to tell you the truth it made me feel loved. Jennifer always did her best to be here after work and Mr. Rogers spared most of his time his lovely daughter.
We weren't on the title basis any more, with time I heard learnt to call him dad and we were really bonding. Am not sure if he told Kenneth about me but either way   am glad I couldn't see him.

Rebecca and Kenneth and the people I mostly didn't want to see and for Sarah, well she's didn't appear in my sight and am good with that.
I was starting to hate the feelings that would surface in me whenever she appeared in my sight, it's not because I hate her well let's say I couldn't bring myself to do it maybe that's because I love her son.
Loving her son didn't mean that am willing to bear with her insults at me anymore, I will stand up for myself but I know my boundaries that means I can't do more that.
And am happy because her not coming meant that Gale won't be hurt anymore, I remember those first days in our apartment.

No matter how hard I always tried it was hard for him to sleep, he was always stressed and sometimes it was hard to eat, but now the Gale that I met that night in an alley was coming back to me and am not ready to lose it all.
"You keep spacing out, what's wrong ?" Maggie asked pulling me out of my thoughts, I turned to her and shrugged.
We're sitting in the living room watching TV but sincerely she was the only one interested not me though it was hard for me to stay in my room longer.
I was anxious to see the outside world again and maybe go back to work, Jennifer had already informed me that my job was given back to me and for Rebecca she is on probation which means any time from now she maybe out the company.
Truly having power was so much fun, it had a way of boosting your confidence. The door bell rung and Maggie turned to me.
"More visitors for you " She stated placing the remote on the table and stood up heading for the door, I was curious and kept looking towards the door.
A nun gown came in to view and I lifted my head up to her face in confirmation, mother Pauline stood there looking back at me. She had her black gown on and a rosary wrapped around her hand.
"Mother " I whispered with a smile as she walked further inside, if I could run then I would done that but it would hurt my baby.
She sat on the same couch as me and looked at me with a smile " how are you doing my dear ?".
"Am okay " I replied mother Pauline with a big smile, ever since I came back from the hospital she never visited and at time I gave up on waiting for her.
I always thought she might have been angry with me when she found dad at the hospital, for some reason it was hard to get her surprised expression from my mind.
"And the baby " mother Pauline asked again and I smiled in reply, I just can't stop that.
"We're both fine " I replied and she nodded looking around the place.
"Your mother used leave here, I hope he told you " am so sure by he, she meant dad, I looked around one more place then at her and nodded.
" Rose, don't be angry with me for not telling you all this from the beginning, I always wanted to but I was never sure on how to start " She replied looking at me, mother Pauline reached out and took my hands in hers.
"It's fine mother but you should have told me, I deserved the truth no matter what " I replied.
"I know dear and that's why am sorry, I wanted to tell you before you left the orphanage but I didn't get the chance to see you on that day and every time you came to visit, it became so hard for me to tell but please forgive me " I looked at mother Pauline and smiled.
"Mother it is really okay " I replied and I squeezed her hand in away of assuring her that it's really okay with me. "Tell me more about my mother "
My excited expression made her laugh "she was very beautiful with a heart of gold, between me and her she was the naughty one and I was the one that cleaned up after her " Some how mother Pauline's voice changed and her eyes immediately closed.
"Elena had a way of handling her things, she was so free and wild to think about the next day or the future and because of that she ran away from home she was sixteen. Elena never wanted to be scolded it was something that ticked her off, she used to say that a mistake is a mistake and having made one meant that she really learned from it so there was no use of rubbing salt in wounds " mother stopped when Maggie walked in with two glasses of water.
She looked at us with a weird expression but didn't say much then walked away, I had no words to say right now so I decided to just listen though mother Pauline seemed more affected with this story.
"But there's one thing that everyone loved about Elena, she was honest and trust worthy. Your mom wasa friend you could call at 3:00 O' clock in the morning and she will come running to you, Elena also loved to work " mother Pauline reached out for her glass of water and took a sip.
"One of her mistakes was you, am not going to tell you how Elena met with your father but I know that when she got pregnant with you were one of her most  regrets in life " I didn't say anything, well what was I to say now. At least now I can picture that sixteen year old girl pregnant and I was mistake, I can now tell someone what my mom was like and it was really comforting.
"When she was pregnant, she tried to abort you more than three time but always had something stopping her until she gave up trying, time came when she started to love you and you became her only hope in this life " mother Pauline took another sip of her water and looked at me.
"Am glad she didn't abort you " she added holding my hand once again " Giving birth to you was tough, since she was immature the doors thought she wouldn't survive and Elena had asked the doctor to focus on saving you " I looked up and mother Pauline realised that I didn't want her to stop.
"Some how you two stopped survived and from then I didn't see her again, I went to the hospital the next day but didn't find her there "
"Where had she gone ?" I couldn't help but ask, mother Pauline didn't want to say much. I could see it her eyes that the more we talked about this the more she got hurt, I almost stopped her but something in me told me that I really do deserve to know
" I don't know, after like one year and eight month I received a call from the hospital that she was found unconscious in her apartment and you had no one to take care of you. I left everything and ran to meet her, that's when I found out that she was battling with leukemia all this while and she was in her last days.
And after two to three month she died living you in my arms, Elena had asked me to take you to Kenneth and let him know about you, I only found out then that he was your father and those two always had something going Ana between them.
After the burial I went to meet with him back at the mansion were he used to stay with his parents and they told me he had moved to the city and they gave me his address " mother Pauline was silent for a while taking a sip of her water.
All this while she hadn't let go of my hand not even for one minute.
"I came to the city to meet him and I did find him, I told him about Elena then you but he refused to take you in his custody simply because he was about to get married and didn't anything to interfere with that. We didn't talk much so time came when I had to live his place.
My place was small and in the slums it wasn't fit enough for a baby to live in but that's all I had at that time and that's how I started living with you before I was given a job in the orphanage and that's how we joined the orphanage " mother breathed out in relief and turned to me.
"Am so sorry I let you grow up under such conditions it was never my intention " she apologized softly and I shook my head.
"I know it was always tough mother but you were there to always support and love me, you gave me that motherly love and am happy with it so please don't apologize to me " I replied and reached for mother Pauline's face wiping away her fallen tears like she always did with mine during my stay in the orphanage or whenever I was hurt.
I know mistakes are done by humans but there wasn't any mistake in this world that could make me hate this woman, she is and will always be part of my whole existence, I pushed my self forward and hugged her tightly.
I was always her embrace that comforted me during childhood, every other child at the orphanage was jealous of me cause they always thought that mother gave me that special care.
I never sensed it at that time but when I looked back to that right now, maybe I did receive extra care simply because we were related and mostly because she's my mother.
We pulled away from each other and she looked at me with beautiful smile, silence took over and I moved close leaning against her shoulder and she placed her hand around me pulling me so close.
A few minutes while we were like that until mother Pauline decided it was the best time to break the silence "So about that boy you love?"
I felt my self start blushing immediately and hid my face in her shoulder, I knew she had to ask about Gale especially when I had gone see her a few days go while crying because him and mostly because me being pregnant while not married is called fornication according to church.
I only hope she doesn't call my relationship with Gale that.