Chapter Seventeen
I walked into the apartment, leaving my shoes on the mat by the door. I pulled a towel off the couch and wiped my sweat.
I still had time to get to work, so I decided to first prepare breakfast cause I knew that Gale was coming.

It was hard to sleep last night and I realised that maybe me and Gale needed more space.
I thought about moving back in this apartment for a while but I didn't want to think of his reaction.
I felt like we both relied on to each other more than we needed to. I never gave him much time to face his emotional torture neither did I have enough time to be confident in me and face the real me.
I wanted to over come my fears and insecurities, I would also like to stand in front of Sarah proudly as the woman his son loves.
For most of the times we had been together, I was always there to cheer him up but his pain and hurt were still there.
They only left for the time being but when he was alone they were back.

I want him to overcome that,I want to see if he will start loving himself and smile over nothings.
I want that Gale back, the one who smiled without and his brown eyes shone along. I don't know what hurt most, is it his mom's reaction towards us or is it Rebecca.
I mean at some time he trusted Rebecca more than me, they had grown up together and he cared for her most. Who would have known that Rebecca always had eyes on him.
And he never speaks in how he feels about all this. I sighed, me and my weird thoughts. I walked to the bathroom to take a shower. I had to attend to a client today but before all that I wanted to talk to Gale, I want the man I loved back.

I couldn't handle the one I saw last night after his mom had left, I want him to let it all out and I want to know what my next step should be.
I knew that this relationship was strong enough but there things between us that we need to clear up especially now that he talked about marriage.
Heat crept up my cheeks and I face palmed, I couldn't believe that I was fantasizing about being married to Gale. It just seemed so unreal like a dream that's so far way.
I stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my body, I had the door open and I smiled knowingly.
I walked out of the room in to the living room and I saw Gale walk in with a bag in his hand. His eyes locked with my green ones and he sent me a smile.
"I got your suit and your tablet " he spoke up placing the bag on the couch, I smiled and whispered a thank you.
I turned to go back to the room and a hand wrapped around my wrist pulling me to a stop, before I could turn around his hands wrapped around my waist pulling me close so that my back touched his chest.
"Gale.. " I whispered shyly, his head laid on my shoulder, his breath tickling my naked skin.
"How was your night?" He whispered, his voice vibrating through my whole body, my eyes fell shut and I felt like my face was on my fire.
"I.. It was good " I whispered my voice faint and small.
"You look beautiful " he added and I smiled, of course he would say that. He never ceased to compliment me or tell me how much he loves me.
"Gale.." I whispered and I heard him him in reply.
"We need to talk " I added and he finally let go, I turned around to see him look every where except me. I held his face in my palms and turned it to face me, my  green eyes locked with his brown ones.
I felt like my hear stopped for a minute and I didn't want to look away at all, I felt like I was falling more and more deeper for this man. His words, his actions made me feel like I scored more than I ever yearned for in this world.
I don't know how long we stood staring at each other like that until he leaned down and stole a quick kiss.
"Huh.. " I whispered lowering my eyes and letting go of his face.
"Please wait for me I will be back soon " I turned around and walked to my room. I could feel his gaze on me, I knew he thought I was acting weird.
And it was all my fault, if I didn't think hard into every thing maybe I would still be back there joking with him.
I stared at my self in the mirror, wondering what's wrong with me. Why am I like this?
I wore a pair of jeans and an over sized shirt then walked out. Gale wasn't in the living room any more, I walked to the kitchen and saw him prepare my small dining table for us.
I walked inside and helped with serving him and my self food, I made his favorite coffee and sat down with him.
Silence roamed around us and I could also feel the tension in the air. Tension that I had caused, I couldn't get anything in stomach so I just settled for watching Gale as he ate.
He seemed so interested in food but I knew that wasn't what was going on, he was trying to not ask what was going on in his mind now.
I had learnt of his little gestures.
" sorry.. It's just that I have a lot on my mind " Now I could see him give me his full attention. He placed his fork down and looked at me, waiting for me to continue.
" Gale, I love you so much and I really hope you know that " I whispered lowering my eyes to my plate. "But I can't help think that we both are hiding a lot from each other "
" I don't have any secrets that you don't know about "
"No.. It's about the secrets. It's about our feelings, like you never told me what happened between you and Rebecca " I added.
" Is this about Rebecca? " I had a chair scrape against the floor and my eyes raised immediately to Gale who had stood up
" No.."
"You left me all night to think about Rebecca, I thought it was because of my mom "
" You're getting me wrong, it's about the both of them " I added standing up too, my voice wasn't high like his but I wasn't in the mood to fight with him.
"Am leaving.. " he whispered, and turned around walking out of the kitchen, I followed behind and watched as he got his shoes on.
" I don't know you anymore " I whispered as he reached out for the door knob. " I don't care about Rebecca or what your mom says about me but I care for you ".
I knew he was hearing me so I decided to let it out " you're hurt because of everything around us Gale and I am seeing the new you not the old you that I knew. Am not asking much I just want you to share your feelings with me, am so open around you and I want that in return "
He finally turned to me and I felt my tears blur with tears as a lump formed in my throat.
" I hate to see that pain in your eyes, it's eating you up and then you act happy around me. I don't want you to treat me like an outsider but the woman that owns your heart, let me in. Let me see that pain Gale don't hide it from me " I wiped a tear that had fallen down my cheeks.
"I know am not good with explaining things but I just hope that you understand me. When you talked about marriage, I felt like I wanted it immediately " I added with a smile "since childhood, I never gave it much thought or dream of it like other girls but you came and now... I dare to dream ".
Gale took a step towards me, his eyes not leaving mine and I felt like it was working so I continued.
" How are we ever going to proceed in the future if you can't share what you feel with me, I know that your naturally closed up but at least if the truly love me then let me in please. Gale I... " A finger was placed on my lips.
I wanted to continue, I wanted to say it all out but before any of that could happen Gale's lips crushed on mine.
I gasped, my arms locking behind his neck as I stepped on my tip toes. His arm wrapped around my waist as he pulled us more close.
I was glad he wasn't angry at me anymore. I loved this man so much and it scared me a lot.